For a second there I thought you were back. You were next to me. You were happy. I kissed you like I used to... but the New Year presents so many options doesn't it? Do we just let go? Did it just happen without me knowing ( Read more... )

So, it's 3 in he morning, + all i can think about is this song ( Read more... )

why am i so stupid... I wish i knew the answers to everything... why do i always act like a retard and fuck shit up... well, i'm told i'm not but then why do i feel so inadequate (spelling?)... It's not like me to feel this way... i was so happy... psychic attack? ... give me a few days and I will hav my walls bak, they are temporarily under ( Read more... )

So it's all sore today... all of it... multiple bruises + not quite sure which activity's engaged in last nite were the cause of which... MSI last night... party @ xit tonite... death tomoro... oh my liver... I need an alcohol demon exorcixt... bitch bitch bitch... i hate this place...

today...yesterday...the day before that... why does everyone think i'm making such a sacrifice... My sister is livid with me, "maybe you hadn't notice but there's a war going on..." and other such foolish remarks... I've just gone cold... I don't care what they give me, I don't care where I go, and we all know that I have no problem defending ( Read more... )

So being on the verge of making several big mistakes, I've decided to stop drinking. It's true wut they say about that whole clouded judgement thing... well, at least I've come to find a very self-destructive pattern of drunken decision-making, which has managed to retard my so-called life so far... For a very long time now i've just been that ( Read more... )

............................................................................................................................ so .................................................................................................. and then ...................................................I need money ( Read more... )

i'll be older in 9 days... I sat down to write some meaningfull apology, but i don't know wut to say... guess i'm just a big jerk... You guys are probably right, i'm just some selfish shithead or something, and I'm sorry, there are worse things in life than being me- and somewhere on that list is being my friend... I'm sorry. If you all dissowned ( Read more... )

1. I am completely alone- I don't even want to hear any fucking comments on how I'm not ( Read more... )