blah. i feel so guilt. i have ignore a inphinite amount of his phone calls ( Read more... )

i officially made enemies with astrology.
can the stars really have that much to say?
i don't think so.

BLAAH.

i cannot study for bio.
god i really need to, but i just can't for some reason.

BLAAH.

i need to go tanning.
my paleness is freaking me out.
and i wanna wear lil dressies soon and such.

everything looks so good in spring
everything is so green
everything looks so bright
and rich and lucious

everything seems so magical.

Why are people happier in love?
I don't understand.
I mean, I agree with it, but I don't understand why.

This is why I need to be psychologist, so I can stop asking myself why.

why why why...!

buddy is going to the vet.
i was so young when cornbread passed that i didnt really understand.
but buddy looks so sad.
he was like, crying and stuff.
and he was so fat but now he's not.
hes so sick.
i just want him to be okay.

:(

aw man.
its like losing a member of your family, ya kno?

i wish i wasnt such a hypocrit.

but i am tired of searching for all things wrong with myself.
i'ma try to look at life with a more positive attitude ya kno?
i've fucked up a lot, i know.

but optimism brings tomorrow.

so im basically addicted to livejournal again. of course ( Read more... )

so i did it. i called him. he dint answer, thank god because i have no idea what i would have said to him. but he texted me back today. it was very unexpected, he called me out on my drunk dial of course ( Read more... )

seriously fuck. need to get out the crib so i can manage my own mind.

i was browsing my mind for a bit.

and i wish i could change everything.
i wish that i hadn't chosen him over her
blasty.

man. why the fuck hasn't anyone invented a time machine yet?