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sometimes i want to be beaten to a bloody pulp
somehow i think i'd feel better that way
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help
Deep down inside, I have more than one lifetime's regrets, and I am extremely disgusted and unhappy with me. I cover it up and pretend no one notices, including me. I wish someone would lift me up out of this forever. God, I know you read my LJ. Why don't you at least comment. :( -
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i'm releieved that i feel remorse
i'm... relieed, just. i'm glad i feel that i can still break gracefullly. I wanna feel broken, in pieces, so that i can pick up the parts that matter and remake me.
goodbye is hard. but it is the sadness and loss that pulls me out of myelf my ego, and shows me what I am really. i'm taking it too hard too soon and ( Read more... ) -
Happy post
you know why? Because I had the thought today that evil really... was claiming ownership of my LJ by me being poopy all the time on it. I admit it's a valid therapy thing, this place I turned sorta into my punching bag. I need a punching bag. But you can let it go far too far, and then it just becomes a symbol of everything bad, and that's...well, ( Read more... ) -
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Everything i wanted to say, was sated in a picture. I may have a better clear outlet now. -
One more wedge
It's not a big wedge driving me and parent further apart, but it's a milestone ( Read more... ) -
Are they even real right now
parent is using digital camera in the next room to take photos of their comp screen that has instructional youtube videos playing, and they try to command me how to have a job and life?
they're worse than the clintons honestly. Buck them. the parents, not the clintons. -
Tumblr hurts me.
All I feel when going on there is pain ( Read more... ) -
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I can't believe after all these years, all I have left of it is a smouldering crater with broken memories. I thought ( Read more... ) -
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nothing good