all these pills that i take to balance my brain.

i decided ( Read more... )

i'm sick of dealing with people's bullshit ( Read more... )

well, goodbye.

i love every one of you
to the point where i could cry.
and i'm sorry
but i have no other choice.
no turning back
no regrets
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
how sorry can i be?
i'm very very sorry from the bottom of my heart
but it has to be done.
goodbye
i love you all
i love everyone of you
to the point that i could cry
i die.

and just remember
all the times that were good
and all the times you felt happy.

because eventaully, all that fucking happiness will go away.

what is wrong with me today. im so angry with everyone. every single person and i can't fucking control my anger. i cant stop crying and i feel like killig myself. as i saw in every fucking entry-but this time its serious i really am upset today. nothing even made me upset i just want to kill every motherfucker. grrrr ( Read more... )

oh my god. OH MY FUCKING GOD i just read the entries in this journal from a while ago. OH MY GOD WHY DIDNT ANYONE FUCKING SLAP ME
every fucking entry i say this is it this is it this is it
but nothing happens
im so fucking stupid what the fuck
i'm going to smoke a cigarette
then do something im going to regret
goodnight, goodnight

i love you

In global class today we had this lady "observing us" for some reason. SHe had me stay after class and talk with her in her office. Apparently she was a psychologist. I think they are fucking after me. I don't like explaining my life to them. I lie to every fucking psychologist i go too. Don't they fucking understand. Jesus christ they are assholes ( Read more... )

( one picture of ugliness )

i should have known he'd do this to me again billy dumped me (of course) and i cared yesterday when i was with sara. i was really upset, but today i realized that since he does this everytime i don't really care. i mean i do but i'll get over it. he's an asshole and i hate him and i don't want to get hurt ever again ( Read more... )