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When the fuck did every one grow up and become cool?
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Excerpt from A Scanner Darly
As he seated himself, she rose to her feet, stood puffing the hash pipe into lively activity, then waddled at him, bent, and as he opened his mouth-like a baby bird, he thought, as he always thought when she did this-she exhaled great gray forceful jets of hash smoke into him, filling him with her own hot and bold and incorrigible energy, which was ( Read more... ) -
Look at how goddamn ugly the stars are
A few minutes to write. To try to shake this omniuos feeling I have in my gut. I feel like today will be all wrong and I'm already on the track and can't get off. Last night felt comforting, and almost perfect. What am I doing.....What is it that I really want to say? I want the cold air to get here already. I want to feel cold. I want to bundle up ( Read more... ) -
Menthol cigarettes
Is it really September? The summer felt not logical at all. I spent my summer wondering if I could actually be in love with my best friend. Who knows he'll probably even read this and I think he already knows anyway. I try really hard to just enjoy wherever the fuck our relationship is at this point. As usual though, being a girl, I can't help but ( Read more... ) -
She's got the best of what I'm waiting for
This week went by too fast and I almost didn't want it to. This weekend looks promising. I'm happy to finally have three days off. I'm really fucking bored right now. I could have went to my friends but I just didn't feel up to it and now I just wish I could talk someone into coming over to watch a movie. I really did want to write something in ( Read more... ) -
You know how I feel..
My life has got to take a change. Everything is routine. My job is routine. Fall feels like things are going to be different. People are about to come and go out of my life. Like a statue I'm still in the same spot. Yeah I know same shit I always say. I feel like I'm not sure if I'm old or if I'm young. Is 24 too old to be going out drinking or ( Read more... ) -
Starlight
Well to say my family isn't always full of fucking surprises would be a lie. My brother Scott ran off and got married and a 10 vacation trip just turned into a fucking month! I'm so pissed I don't even know what to do about it ( Read more... ) -
Poker
Ok so I was reading one of those ridiculous survey things that people fill out on myspace when they are bored. So my friend had this question and it was "ever play strip poker" so I'm like, Thats fucking dumb who would do that yadda yadda yadda. Then it fucking hits me. I played strip poker at rebeccas house with, Forman, Will, and I can't remember ( Read more... ) -
Anything fun?
For once, I am completely confused. I started off drinking a couple beers only to realize I didn't want to. I didn't want to get drunk anymore. It wasn't fun anymore. I miss you. I know this is for real when I know that my head isn't making the choices anymore. All the lights are left on. -
Loco
Yesterday at work was a fucking nightmare. The more I think that I want to quit smoking I smoke more. What the fuck is up with that? I'm constantly pissed in the back of my mind about everything at home and it only takes one wrong sentence to set me off. I need someone to have a party or something. I want to go out and do something. There is ( Read more... )