I finally have some kind of a life, I guess thats why I'm not writing in here. I'm alive and that is always an accomplishment.

This vacation is fantastic.

I'm working my ass off trying to lose this post breakup weight from like 2 years ago. It's so fucking hard. I finally picked up my guitar yesterday and was elated to feel so much joy from it. I was terrified that it wouldn't feel right anymore and that I had avoided it and forgotten. I can't wait to play after work today. I try so hard to do things ( Read more... )

Since Tom reminded me, a year with the first line of every month of my entries. Well if I posted that is ( Read more... )

http://xkcd.com/513/

Before I forget this feeling... lately the weekends, especially Sunday seems to draw out forever. When I feel like the day must be close to an end and it's gray outside I look at my clock and it's only 3pm. Don't get me wrong. I love it. I feel like I have forever to do .... I don't even know what. I really don't want this winter to stop. For some ( Read more... )

"Clair De Lune" is an amazing piece

As the slide show flipped through picture after picture, I realized that the past two years were not what I thought. I had captured the sad, happy, silly, loved moments one by one. I forgot about that day and that. The times I cried and thought I am alone and all along the proof was sitting on a folder on my computer. Every photo brought a new ( Read more... )

It's one of those days where you miss all the people you don't talk to. You look at photographs and try to imagine how their life is and why exactly you never make the phone call. I'm in my house on a saturday and there are 2 partys I know of but I don't want to leave the comfort of sitting in my pajamas. I went to a party yesterday and I didn't ( Read more... )

I have had the weirdest series of dreams lately. This one I just felt like sharing. Stefan and I went into the city and went to Caitlin and Keely's after Halloween party. The house was crazy cool and I remember Caitlin being like " I can't believe you came" and Stefan and I were like "yeah we were hanging out and were like theres nothing going on ( Read more... )

Ok so to get this off my chest. I don't vote. I don't want to vote. I don't give a fuck about the election. I didn't even register to vote until my license expired and just because I thought I might vote only because I think gays should be able to get married but that one issue alone is not enough to make me vote. In fact it's my American, God ( Read more... )