No Air
Series: What Fate has joined together...
Title: No Air
Pairing: yamachii, yamajima friendship
Fandom: hs7, hsjump
Notes: A random au angst yamachii fic....don't hate me for it...
For my Chii....my one and only Chii....
What Fate has joined together ch1. On the wind pt1- yama-chan centric
What Fate has joined together ch1. On the wind pt2- yama-chan centric
What Fate has joined together ch2. Cotton candy- yama-chan centric
Leaving Ryo was the hardest thing I've ever done. It hurt so much when he pulled away and shut me out...I know I was his first serious relationship but there is only so much pain the person you love can subject you to before you can't take anymore. I know leaving was the only choice I could have made but that doesn't take away the pain...
When I talk to him...it hurts so much...that I can't breathe...
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Sometimes...I won't admit this to anyone else but sometimes...I wish that I wouldn't wake up...that way I wouldn't have to wake up and remember that we are far apart...
If I should die before I wake
Why? Couldn't he stay with me? I loved him...he was my everything and he kept pushing me away...
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Ryo...I couldn't take the pain of living with a ghost...I loved you...I did...
That doesn't make this any easier...when I think of you I choke up inside and want to cry...
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh
You weren't even there when I left? How could you just leave me? Ryo, you should have been there to say goodbye...
I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
This is the only choice I could make...leaving when you weren't there...I wanted to die...
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand
Just because I'm here and you're there...doesn't mean I've forgotten...
I'm watching you from afar...
So how do you expect me to live alone with just me
I can't replace you...not ever...
Sometimes it hurts so much...I want to breathe...but it hurts....
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
Alone...a cold bed...no good morning kiss...no cuddling...no smile...
The silence...its so heavy sometimes...
I wish I could call you without feeling like I'm going to fall apart...
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
I'm back in Uni...the semester off didn't really hurt me...
But...I'm lost...and...I miss you....
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
I have to let him go...it isn't healthy to be this way...
Loving him...missing him...so much that I can't breathe...
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
I wish I could rewind it to the first time I went to stay with him...and redo everything...then...perhaps this wouldn't happen...
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
I saw him in my dreams the other night...
He was holding the sketches of the manga that brought us together and was trying to rip them to peices to throw to a fire. I hurried to his side and took them away...
I couldn't let him destroy it...no matter how much I resented the story...I couldn't let you destroy something you put your heart and soul into...
I wanted to take him into my arms, the pain I saw in his eyes...like he wanted to hug me...cry...or try to take the sketches back...
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
I'm still alive...the pain of missing him isn't going away...but I'm still here...
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care
Heaven help me...I still love him...I just don't...can't let him hurt me like that...
I wish I could be with him...I find myself listening to our favorite songs...or looking at the sketches he made just for me....
I can't get him out of my heart...Ryo...I left you but I can't forget you...or the love we shared....
So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
Title: No Air
Pairing: yamachii, yamajima friendship
Fandom: hs7, hsjump
Notes: A random au angst yamachii fic....don't hate me for it...
For my Chii....my one and only Chii....
What Fate has joined together ch1. On the wind pt1- yama-chan centric
What Fate has joined together ch1. On the wind pt2- yama-chan centric
What Fate has joined together ch2. Cotton candy- yama-chan centric
Leaving Ryo was the hardest thing I've ever done. It hurt so much when he pulled away and shut me out...I know I was his first serious relationship but there is only so much pain the person you love can subject you to before you can't take anymore. I know leaving was the only choice I could have made but that doesn't take away the pain...
When I talk to him...it hurts so much...that I can't breathe...
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Sometimes...I won't admit this to anyone else but sometimes...I wish that I wouldn't wake up...that way I wouldn't have to wake up and remember that we are far apart...
If I should die before I wake
Why? Couldn't he stay with me? I loved him...he was my everything and he kept pushing me away...
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Ryo...I couldn't take the pain of living with a ghost...I loved you...I did...
That doesn't make this any easier...when I think of you I choke up inside and want to cry...
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh
You weren't even there when I left? How could you just leave me? Ryo, you should have been there to say goodbye...
I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
This is the only choice I could make...leaving when you weren't there...I wanted to die...
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand
Just because I'm here and you're there...doesn't mean I've forgotten...
I'm watching you from afar...
So how do you expect me to live alone with just me
I can't replace you...not ever...
Sometimes it hurts so much...I want to breathe...but it hurts....
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
Alone...a cold bed...no good morning kiss...no cuddling...no smile...
The silence...its so heavy sometimes...
I wish I could call you without feeling like I'm going to fall apart...
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
I'm back in Uni...the semester off didn't really hurt me...
But...I'm lost...and...I miss you....
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
I have to let him go...it isn't healthy to be this way...
Loving him...missing him...so much that I can't breathe...
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
I wish I could rewind it to the first time I went to stay with him...and redo everything...then...perhaps this wouldn't happen...
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
I saw him in my dreams the other night...
He was holding the sketches of the manga that brought us together and was trying to rip them to peices to throw to a fire. I hurried to his side and took them away...
I couldn't let him destroy it...no matter how much I resented the story...I couldn't let you destroy something you put your heart and soul into...
I wanted to take him into my arms, the pain I saw in his eyes...like he wanted to hug me...cry...or try to take the sketches back...
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
I'm still alive...the pain of missing him isn't going away...but I'm still here...
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care
Heaven help me...I still love him...I just don't...can't let him hurt me like that...
I wish I could be with him...I find myself listening to our favorite songs...or looking at the sketches he made just for me....
I can't get him out of my heart...Ryo...I left you but I can't forget you...or the love we shared....
So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe