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Finding
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LesPark
So I signed up for an account on LesPark. I had Alli take my picture by the pool, and I even put in my REAL weight, which I never do because I figure its better for someone to be pleasantly surprised after seeing a crappy picture than disappointed. The shocking thing is that really attractive women are messaging me, telling me Im cute and wanting ( Read more... ) -
Radical idea
I just had the most radical and frightening idea Ive ever had. Put myself first. Make myself my number 1 priority. I dont dare and even if I did, I wouldnt know how. Its scary and a little exciting and forbidden. What if?
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My urge to die and my urge to love are at war. I love him so much Id sell my soul for his happiness and die in the bargain if I thought it would ease his pain. But my own pain at watching him suffer and being powerless to help has left me with no will of my own. Our poor children did nothing to deserve two suicidal parents. I never should have had ( Read more... ) -
So
So now that Otty and I are in an open relationship, I'm rethinking my whole life. I know he and I are rock solid. I just need to put my jealousy aside. The thing is, he has made it very very clear from the very start that I was not enough and never would be. I demanded absolute fidelity and he gave it, I think grudgingly. But the effects on my ( Read more... )
