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so, sometimes i miss life from three, or six, or eight years ago, and i get caught in a big huge pull back into the past, and into lots of memories. when i start to think about life two or even one year ago, that's when i get way too sad, and i make myself stop. i'm not ready. there is so much that i left undone, unsaid, and that i can't go back to ( Read more... )

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it's been a while, huh?

umm i guess i could write a million things. i think i'm overwhelmed, but i know it all works out.

it always does. and if it doesn't, then you pick shit up and start over.

but...

anyhow.

i have a pink cell phone cover.

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thinking too much, as usual. i always get myself in these kinds of situations, and i think with my heart and the rest of my body follows and i end up getting hurt worse that i expect ( Read more... )

tomorrow i'll be 22 ( Read more... )

overwhelmed.

that's how i feel.

so overwhelmed.

i might explode.

oi vey.

the first time, the first time, the first time...it never gets better than that.

don't try to fool yourself.

"they can take away my drugs, but i cannot imagine that they will ever be able to take away my loneliness."

-elizabeth wurtzel-

today i will:

-make twenty dollars
-call my grandma
-print out study guides for grad school examinations
-perfect tuna noodle casserole
-clean under the bed
-start a chameleon fund

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