Day 94

[kyanni]

I don't like the icon they have for depressed. Depressed people don't always cry. They can be like me, feeling nothing but despair on the inside yet showing it as rage. Yeah I know, I'm not very nice when in a mood like this. We all know it's hard for me to admit things but there it is for all to see. I don't really care to tell the truth. I know I

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[whilstsheslept]

I still want to know what happened Aleida...I are and im worried. And you are not a burden on my shoulder, i can assure you of this. I promise you.

[kyanni]

thank you sarah *hug* I love you girl. it was just a stupid "argument" between me n aaron. I was being my usual independent self wanting to get used to crap and all he wanted to do was to help but I hate being helped when I dun ask for it, makes me feel inept so I got angry. anyway he got off so I thought he was being pissy so I got madder and sent him an email that said if he was gonna be like that then fine but that i could be just as stubborn. so yeah anyway it was all my fault. he didnt deserve any of that. I dun even really get why I was so mad. it wasnt a big deal. but I was mad enough I cried and he felt terrible and yeah I feel inadequate to deal with anything at the moment. I shouldn't put him through that. he deserves better than me. glad I'm going away for a month. I'll have time to figure out what to do. I'm losing it already...

[slay187]

Don't think like that...I couldn't possibly deserve better then you...your the best girl I ever met and I really mean that. There is no way I would ever give you up. I would be so stupid if I did...and I wouldn't even call it a arguement. I didn't say anything back so it was pretty much you doing the talking and me well, trying to understand. I'm really sorry about it all, but you do so much for me. I just really want to pay you back for it all. I don't like the fact your going away for a month but you can never say I deserve better then you...I love you and I could never love anyone else...but you :) So really don't think of it as a arguement, but more of a misunderstanding...its only a arguement if both sides fight and I assure you I never fought back. I wouldn't ever :) About the whole going to be gone for a month...I'm really going to miss you...I always love you and wont go to anyone else ever...that I swear. I always will love you :)

[kyanni]

yeah I know ^^ you put that point across pretty well yesterday lol

[hittokiri1859]

your not a burden on anyone everyone worries about you alot and i hope this all works out good.

[kyanni]

thank you alan *hug*