I'm sorry I can't be everything that you want me to be, your friend, your enemy, your love, or your life which ever it may be. This just isn't me, I don't know where I've gone but I long to see what might actually become of me. Catholic school was so easy, spending my days being the "butt" of the jokes, come home and fade the days away in my room ( Read more... )

One after another, they just keep coming. Dodging bullets would be a simple thing to do rather than try to dodge these bad days coming on full force. This day for example has already started bad. Shes not worth my time anymore, whats the use in talking to someone anyway about everything negative. I don't see one. I wont throw her out of my life ( Read more... )

I went to my friends house and rode jet skis. It was bad ass. That is ALL I did today. Tyler (dick head) was actually really nice to me today, it was great.

Nazi Punks Fuck Off,

Kyle

Life sucks, everything always fucking happens like this. I have a really really good few days and then BOOM some fucking bitch comes along to ruin it. I seriously don't understand why this always seems to happen to me. God (if IT even really exsists) must have it out for me or something. Why can't I find peace in this damn town.

I understand that ( Read more... )

Wow for the last four days it's been as if I've dropped off the face or the earth, AND I LOVE IT. The past four days of my life have been devoted to nothing but rock and our band (Seven Second Suicide). We've played 2 shows in the past four days and we've been up playing until about 3 almost every night. We also learned two new songs. On monday I ( Read more... )

What the fuck did I do that was so wrong? Does she really thing I try to hurt her so much? I don't, its not like I go out of my way to make her hurt. But lately everything she says seems to just come out wrong. I find it hard to believe that most of it does. I wonder how much of what she says that she really actually means. My life is like a broken ( Read more... )

Right now I just finished my Final exam for CRT (it was easy) and I hate this class soo much. I wish that I could go to Alex's graduation but it doesn't look like that's going to happen either. Cashia still means a lot to me and it bothers me how I just brush her off sometimes, I dont even know why I do it. Today has been alright (so far) but I can ( Read more... )

I went to a BAD ASS concert tonight. The opening band Flesh and Blood Robot was FUCKING CRAZY, then the second band was extremely gay. The headlining band Most Precious Blood was AMAZING. The pit was shitty though, there were these "metal heads" and then the "hardcore punk kids". That didnt go over well, I did how ever get hit in the face a few ( Read more... )

As much as it scares me to think that I'm actually going down the same road as Jonas (my brother) I know that I am. I've already been set up for failure. It scares me but at the same time it creates this immense feeling of reassurance because I know Jonas is a GREAT person whom I care for dearly.

I've spent most of this weekend alone and its been ( Read more... )

Ditched once more what a mother fucker life is. I honestly have no clue if its just me or if im actually doing something wrong. Nobody can save me, no one can save me from what I'll do if I'm alone. If I don't die before i'm 20 i'll see life as nothing but failure.

I can't live every day like this.  My heart is sore from all these emotions running ( Read more... )