It's been a while...but its not like anyone really ever notices. The girl of my dreams basicly told me everything i do wrong today, which kinda shocked me but hey at least i know she cares about me and i'll never stop caring about her ;).....i havn't talked to britt in a while because her stuck up little ass wont e-mail me...grrness!!!!! Other than ( Read more... )

School is retarded, especially English II. We're doing this lame research paper that we've basically got to figure out on our own. Teachers pffft who needs them. I got a new cell phone so thats KICK ASS! Shavona is sittin next to me wooh. She looks like shes havin a rough day! I wish i could make her happy. I got to talk to my buddy sarah from YAC ( Read more... )

Fuck writing down how i feel it doesn't matter anyway. Life sucks so roll a joint and smoke your pain away. This is what drugs does! what the fuck Hoof Hearted!!!!!!!!! DAMN YOU

Everything turned out like shit, I knew I never should have attempted to be happy. I still love this girl to death and I hope I always will. But I'll never know what I missed out on. I just hope she knows that I still care.

cs I'll never forget

It makes me sick to my stomach to comprehend the thoughts  that go through my head. Sleepless nights are nothing new, but sleepless nights because of feeling alone in this world. That has been a while. Why is it soo hard to find true love and even harder to find true friends? I desperate for someone to care. I need someone in my life that even ( Read more... )

I want to know what the fuck I did to make my "friends" sell out on me time and time again. I want to know what sparked the reason for jonas tearing me down as a person and making me feel weak. Do I deserve this? Most likely, but from Jonas? No, not at all....at least thats what I think but im probably wrong. I don't however need the friends that ( Read more... )

Is it really even worth it to keep trying to make life better? I can't have constant smile on my face beacuse someone always slaps it off with such harsh words. I'll just drift through life day by day not caring about anyone but myself then I might get somewhere? Doubtful but hey its worth a try, am I right?

Jealousy, what a bitch right? Ugh the ( Read more... )

This weekend was the BEST, I went to Mt. Pleasent for YAC camp. This had to be the best weekend ever, everyone was great and I got some phone numbers so that was bad ass as well.

The first day we got there we went on a rock wall. It was great just getting to meet the new people and have fun doing that. Then we played some Ice Braker games. For me ( Read more... )

What's the use in trying anymore...I don't wish to keep writing because my life is dull and noexistant (to most people). The only things that happen are between Christina (not Nerad because shes a bitch) and I, and I play baseball as well as go to concerts. That is it so why even keep writing. I know I will but tonight just isn't the night for me ( Read more... )

I wish I had realized sooner how much stronger I can actually be when she doesn't "waste" her time on me. I'll move on like i've done time and time before, but I can't decide if this one actually hurts more or if I should just brush her off like so much thats happened to me before. I wonder if being friends is really worth it, I understand shes ( Read more... )