Well perhaps I should have ranted in this instead of in the e-mail I just sent Scott. I feel amazingly relaxed... Is this what a nervous break down is ( Read more... )

So does anyone else ever get so happy about love and then they realize that this is real life and those sort of romantic things don't happen to them? I don't mean mania/depression mood swings, I mean mood swings where you get bombarded by real life. This morning while I was sleeping I was so excited about this month... I was think that I was ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD HELL HAS FROZEN OVER. Scott e-mailed me back---not once but TWICE. OH MY GODDESS!!!! Craziness. CRAZY. I see him again Thursday. I'm gonna have to look cute.

So how do you go about finding the person you want to spend the rest of your life with? My father lived below my mother in an apartment building he helped her take up furniture. Such randomness occurs and here I am. What about my future lover ( Read more... )

I never know what I do to make non-relationships end. Do I scare them off? Do I come off too strong. I'm more than willing to be JUST friends if necessary. I love friendship too. I want to know how I could be so blinded by a crush that I didn't realize he didn't even want to be my friend--not on any level. I don't get it. I thought we WERE ( Read more... )

Ok well I exercised on the eliptical for 45 minutes and I'm doing some strength training exercises as well. I've decreased my calorie intake even more and I'm still gaining weight. It's not by a lot--but it's still increasing and I want to decrease. The only reason why I journal this is so that I have to be honest. I have to say--yes well after ( Read more... )

Well for anyone that has always been fat (like me) and has never known what it was like to actually run a mile because you were too out of breath to make it all the way (me) I did it. No, not in the 5 minutes they say for the President's fitness test or what not. But I did a mile and a hlf in 45 minutes on the eliptical. This is again not on a ( Read more... )

He e-mailed me. But didn't show up for work--prob. for the rest of the month.

The last few weeks have without a doubt been the worst of the last 5 years or so. It has been terrible and crazy weird. It started of course with Vic and freaking out about Maryland and my lack of Ph.D. potential. That said it progressed to the point of doom where I was ready to quit school and run away--which is still on the table. This last ( Read more... )

My life sucks. At some point I might have to leave despite the degree hanging the balance.

Bleck