So I totally just performed a glamour spell, part of it though is up to me. I have to get more active now that camp is ending. I am joining a yoga class and I am going to swim once the indoor pool reopens. I need to start feeling better about myself. Everyone says that I'm pretty or at least not ugly, but I need to start believing it and seeing ( Read more... )

My life sucks. I'm tired, cranky, I don't feel great (mixed state and all). I want to sleep but I can't. I just told my school I would not be at the orientation. I will attend class but I doubt that I will be happy about well, anything. Currently I hate everything. Everything. I keep playing back conversations I want to have with Scott, good ( Read more... )

EHh it's been a slow day. Not really bad, just the type that you spend in your head (ok so most people don't do this--but I do). I dunno- so many of my friends live far away and the ones that don't aren't immediately available in a crisis. A few days ago my entire support network crashed around me and that was a MINOR crisis. What happens when ( Read more... )

No it wasn't bad lol. It was fine. I even got to hang out with the girls--although I did constantly look at my watch... I get a bit paranoid. JUST A BIT at times.... But they had drinks and then I went to another class. SIGH. Literary Journalism will be different. Maybe I'll learn to love and not be apathetic.

Well school begins again tomorrow. I am not looking forward to it. BLECK AU BLECK. Don't get me wrong, it won't be terrible. It's just not what I thought it would be.

I can't breathe. My life sucks it does--it's true. It is true. Maryland for their Ph.D. program requires a 3.7--let's just say that I do not have a 3.7 in my master's program. I'm not sure what i'm going to do. I can't breathe. There are other programs it's true--but the idea of it all has set me in a tizzy. I have 4 classes this fall, i'm ( Read more... )

I know that I don't have real problems... When I say that I'm broke, it means I can't afford the venti sugarfree vanilla skim carmelmachiato (sp?). I mean come on... I know. I whine. People have all these worse problems than me and I can get consumed by mine... it's crazy. The sad thing is that at some point--these stupid little things will ( Read more... )

Believe me there are more poems. But those are for the thesis. I need to write about T.C. next lol--maybe next Spring I'll be like--hmm I'm ready to write our quirky yet exciting times.

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