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Poems
( Scott Poems ) -
Help
Someone needs to show me how I link to a longer post. I want to change my last entry but I don't know how. -
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I've been looking through old LJ posts and I've decided that I haven't changed at all. I thought that I'd grown in the last two- three years, became a completely different person, but even the syntax is the same. I fight infatuation then I fall head first into it, and it even sounds the same. I've been looking through old T.C. posts and IT IS ( Read more... ) -
People Suck
So yeah--one of my friends--some of you might know who--has totally been ditching me. I told her on the phone that Scott had a girlfriend and that was THE LAST THING I TOLD HER. She went on vacation--fine. That's ok--don't talk to me for a week--but then don't be an ass when you do get back and make it sound like my call is an inconvenience. If ( Read more... ) -
SWOONS
OH MY. It's been a rough week. But I got through it and got to see Scott!! YES. SO WORTH IT. Despite looking at him making me feel like I'm going to puke. I mean really, is this love? CRAZY ( Read more... ) -
I can't breathe
Well I can... but it's hard. It's a cross between a panic attack and something more profound. After tomorrow I have to wait 3 weeks to see Scott again. I barely made it this week without e-mailing him. As it is I'm driving everyone nuts. I mean--well what do I do??? I'm gonna have to talk to him tomorrow tell him well not everything-- ( Read more... ) -
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Someday the author has to write a happy ending right? I mean I can make happy endings or sad endings as a poet but it's all for artistic effect.... What if I'm the sad ending for the goddess????? Maybe Scott isn't the one but is there a one? There has got to be... I have no one that I can cry to anymore... not really. I feel like I have to ( Read more... ) -
It's amazing being bi-polar
It's amazing how fast my mood can swing--especially dealing with thinking about Scott. One minute I think that he could be the one and the other is that he admitted that he had a girlfriend. It can be very crushing... I've fell for the wrong person again. I knew that we could never work out and that he wouldn't love me on one level, but on ( Read more... ) -
Well yes...I am an idiot.
I thought that finding out Scott was taken would destroy everything--not my life but my romantic gestures, our fastly developing friendship, etc. etc. But no, we're still the same way we were. Outside of seeing him I get a bit discouraged, and lonely. I could be happy only seeing him every day. I'm not sure that was the case for ANYONE else. ( Read more... )