SO first order of buisness. I did talk to my boss. I made her aware of the situation. Of course nothing will happen. And I thought Scott was being a jerk because I e-mailed him for advice and he never e-mailed me back. He was really nice about it though and told me that he didn't talk about those things in e-mail. He told me that we could talk ( Read more... )

Well as everyone pretty much knows I wasn't looking forward to Six Flags. It wasn't terrible so don't get me wrong but there were several really, really tense moments where I thought I'd kill someone. It started out with the back up on the beltway and 95. Our kids were late, the busses were late, the one inclusion counselor from hell ANNOYED me ( Read more... )

Well I am less depressed--it goes in cycles. Now I'm back to pining or aching or whatever the hell I'm doing. I dunno. Mooning like a love sick cow? Something like that. I feel like I'm the verge of something great but I'm not sure how to keep going without ruining everything. Camp is of course ending. Next week is the last week, and then I ( Read more... )

Well obviously I'm bipolar so sometimes my mood has to fall. I'd like to think that someday someone will love me. I do. I'm pretty sure they won't. Realistically I know that Scott will never love me. I do. It's fun to have fantasies though. I have absolutely nothing to offer, well besides my wit ( Read more... )

SO yeah. I'm not really interested in anything except the whole work relationship thing. It really is bizzare. For two years I've been able to repress all sorts of stupid romantic notions. And now I can't stop thinking about it. The days we don't work together I have to make myself do things and concentrate. What am I going to do? I only ( Read more... )

It's been a blur. Monday and Wednesday were chocolate days, Tuesday we swam (I got sunburned,)Thursday I went to King's Dominion, and today was Pajama Day. It was actually quite relaxing in the scheme of things ( Read more... )

So Scott was acting weird today. Not uhmm crazy weird, but that nice weird again. He usually looks grumpy when I go into the computer lab and he actually started making small talk and wanted me to stay. I said I'd leave him alone and he shugged and so I went back in and talked to him for a few more minutes. Then later, I was playing tag with ( Read more... )

Well of course the week's been busy. It is camp time. We're now half way through!!! I don't know if I should be relieved or saddened. It's been crazy. And crazy good most of the time. So yes, Scott is the perfect man. I'm sure he doesn't want to be my boyfriend but he's perfect. HE HAS A DARTH VADER COSTUME--I mean a REAL ONE!!!!! WITH A ( Read more... )

I hate infatuation. It always makes me feel stupid and I always have to try to get my heart broken. It's apparently the only way for me to do it. *SIGH* I just have to ask them out don't I? Have I yet? No but I told him I'd buy him dinner, even steak, if he helped me out. He is, next Friday, and I'm working there at the center anyway. *SIGH ( Read more... )

I suppose we really should ignore yesterday's post at least until Monday or Tuesday or the Solstice. I've had a Scott free day so perhaps I've gotten my thoughts back in order. We can only hope.