Why is it that I can't ever be happy?
Why is it that everytime I am happy, it's nothing but a tease.
Why is it that everytime I'm with someone for only a short amount of time, I'm crushed rather than when I'm with someone for a long time and they leave me, I frankly don't give a fuck...

I'm in love with destruction.
I always set myself up for a fall.
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I'm sick of drama ( Read more... )

So.
The military rejected me. Told me that they wouldn't take me because I'm psychologically unstable and shit like that.

So I'm picking up another job. I'm gonna start working at McDonalds after I get back from my road trip.
I'm looking at this apartment here up the road.
I've figured everything out and hopefully it all goes as planned.
But I'm gonna ( Read more... )

So, I've finally decided ( Read more... )

So lately, I don't know what's really going on anymore.
I don't know what my feelings are.
I feel lonely, but I want to be alone. 
Yet I want to be comforted.
I seem to find comfort in spending time with just myself.
But then again, I've always been known to wander off by myself...
It's like I just need to walk away from my life...

I've been extremely ( Read more... )

So I'm back to using this journal again... I'm not into the whole therian thing anymore... 
I was only into it really because of Kina. 
Yes I will always be 'Gorvo' to her, but thats where that name stops.
I am Matt, and I've finally come to accept what and who I am.
It's about damned time too, I was really beginning to get confused with all of the ( Read more... )

Well... I've decided that its time to share some of my work with other people... Maybe it'll inspire someone? Maybe I dunno. But here you go.... Its a lot of reading... and I think most of it's pretty shitty...

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I'm home... but I still don't feel like this is real... It all just seems like a dream, and my dreams always turn sour... Bleh. Hopefully this doesn't turn out to be like one of my dreams... Hopefully for once everything goes smoothly... I just wanna see everyone happy ( Read more... )

So here I am back home, it's so comforting to be back, yet... It all feels odd. My dad is doing well, my sister is just as annoying as she was when I left. But yet something screams to me at the back of my mind. It's kinda tripping me out... I feel as though I have never even left ( Read more... )

Well today is the day, the day before I fly 3 hours back to Ohio. The last day that I'm going to get to hang out with Riley, and yet we can't find anything to do. Haha, hasn't that like been the biggest problem both of us have had out here this entire year? There's been so much that has happened this year, that I'll never be able to go into full ( Read more... )