I'm leaving for a while. I can't give readers a date and time I'll feel like returning to this account.

I am unable to freely and openly express myself in a manner that satisfies and helps to alleviate stress, worry, and trauma.

I have only been looking for a vent/outlet for my emotions, and I have once again been stoppered.

I do not seek advice ( Read more... )

Sometimes it's impossible for you to make sense of all the details. Today, however, you are the one who seems to be able to put enough of the small pieces of a puzzle together so you can see the big picture. Others may depend on your holistic thinking now, so don't hold back. Trust your intuition but don't lose sight of your common sense.

Your ( Read more... )

Do you stay in touch with your former romantic partners? Have most of your break-ups been amicable or messy?

I talked to one of my exes, who became like my best friend, for a very long time after our mutual separation. I haven't really had a lot of break ups, but the ones that I have had have always been mature, and we laid out our differences on ( Read more... )

Do certain items of clothing remind you of people or events from your past? If so, what garment reminds you of a particularly happy memory?

The first thing on the list is pretty obvious---my wedding gown. Perhaps not the best, fancy, or well-fitted (no money for tailoring), but still a lacy, beautiful gown that made me feel pretty. The hangar ( Read more... )

After our "attack", mom continued to answer the phone when these guys called. One, in particular, called last night---it was a woman this time, supposedly a CEO of the company, requesting oh-so-sweetly for more money to complete the delivery transaction.

I heard mom say: "I don't know who she's on the phone with now, but she goes: "I don't even care ( Read more... )

Mark and I cornered mom when she got home today. We told her that we had some serious issues that we needed to talk to her about.

The first thing I started off with, was the knowledge that our food stamps have been cut down to nothing, because one of the first things she wanted when she got home (knowing it was the first of the month) was Pepsi. We ( Read more... )

The last straw to break the camel's back has arrived. I'm sucking up my pride and asking---no, I'm begging---for help. Anyone willing to make a legitimate loan, with receipt, please contact me. You will get your money back in a timely fashion WHEN we reach Oklahoma.

Today, the first of the month, we checked our food stamp balance. With the ( Read more... )

Are you worried about where technology will lead us? Do you think it's possible that civilization may someday turn away from technology altogether for the betterment of humankind?

Yes, and I hope so. We've drained this earth dry and we have to make amends. We have to stop thinking so selfishly and begin thinking about the future---not that we've ( Read more... )

I'm still feeling more than a little angry about yesterday and its goings on.

Bella is doing a little better, at least. She has some of that sparkle back in her bottomless dark eyes, which is something I always long to see.

I learned that when Mark called his mother yesterday, she told him that we needed to get out of the house and do something ( Read more... )

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. And some derrhurr, too.

Okay, my day has been... stressful. First off, I had a myself a little nerd rage over all the bugs that came with World of Warcraft's latest patch. Latency issues, missing NPC's, general crashing and server downtime. I have something of a schedule going on, and I don't like when my schedule is interrupted. Like ( Read more... )