it's been forever. but, i needed a place where i could write what i really felt without the person ever seeing it.

you control every thought i have. if you aren't happy, then neither am ( Read more... )

the last part made me laugh, b/c it REALLY, REALLY bothers me if people leave socks on during sex, haha.

i was told to update my journal. so here i am. a lot of ( Read more... )

i got in a really bad car accident on wednesday. from the severity of the accident, i shouldn't even be here to type this right now. someone was watching over me though and had a plan for me in life, i guess. that's the only thing that explains how i'm even alive today.

i was driving home from class. the cruise was set on 70, i was only ( Read more... )

i felt sorta conceited about some of these. so i just asked other people, does that still count? it's really freaky how well this describes me.

birthmonth meme
1. Pick your birth month.
2. Italics anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the four that best apply to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a journal cut.

MARCH:
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so, it's officially over. i got the "i know you'll make someone really happy someday and i wish you the best" speech. too bad that someone couldn't be him. but, i'm not going to try anymore. i've done it before -- i can do it this time. moving on isn't impossible.

i've realized my problem. i need attention, i crave it. it's a huge fault that i wish ( Read more... )

why do i have to have the ability to ruin the things that are best for me? it's a curse. it's like i can't allow myself to be completely happy. once i get close to it, i want so much more .. and then i end up losing it all. i really care about him, i love him .. and i know he feels the same.. but i have to push for more.. i have to find out exactly ( Read more... )

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this weekend was so shitty sports-wise. ku jayhawks.. who were no. 2.. got killed, not just beat.. DESTROYED by villanova.. like 27 points i think? then the steelers. i sorta knew they wouldn't win, but my grandpa had his heart set on it & i really would've liked to see them win for him.

other news - hm, let's see. wow, my life is so boring lol

i ( Read more... )