I need to make a confrontation with my best friend today but I do not know what to say exactly. First of all, we are really close. He recently became single in January and since I liked him so much, I was REALLY happy. We ended up fooling aound twice, but never had sex. He then on my birthday, March 17th, said he was busy studying but that we could ( Read more... )

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The year is over.. wow! my last class of the semester was yesterday. The semester went by reallllllllly fast! And I leave santa barbara in 9 days for the summer. I am coming back next year yay ( Read more... )

Haha, so much for me writing in this journal everyday. I still have 11 days to go until I leave Chicago and return to Santa Barbara. Long break, huh? I hope that when I return, that I can handle being there. I am doing a lot better with the whole Jared deal, but I think thats partly because I am now away from California. So what happens when I ( Read more... )

Well, I have not written in here in a bit. But I think since I am now home from college for a MONTH, I will be able to write daily.. I hope. I am really glad to be home for a month. At first, I was really sad to leave Santa Barbara, and I still miss it terribly, but I needed a break. I miss Jared so much, and just being there without him and being ( Read more... )

happy thanksgiving everybody!! I hope everyone has a great day!!

I got home to Chicago last night and it was so different! My baby sister is as tall as me and is now a brunette instead of a blond, which was what she was when I left in August. its sad! I miss santa barbara already so much and i cant wait to get back to santa barbara on monday!

so I have realized how messed up I really can be/am. I realized that I was obbessed with Gordon, and it was borderline neurotic. Which.. is bad. And I realized that I am in beautiful Santa Barbara and need to take advantage of it. Seriously, how many of you who are reading this get to go to college that sits on the beach? Not many!! I need to take ( Read more... )

so, i am coming to terms with myself and this is what i have learned ( Read more... )

I graduate soon (today actually, June 1) and I am so sad and so excited at the same time. I am going to miss all of my teachers and my friends and even all of the fake people at my school, I will miss. I'll miss the hallways and the stupid crazy bus drivers and so on. I will probably end up crying at graduation. <3 ( Read more... )

I have a dilemma. Last year a boy that I knew liked me. I did not like him, I was interested in another guy. I told him this over and over again, and finally he got the hint. He didn't touch me or try and kiss me anymore, we were just friends. But these past few months, even if hes away at college, I've started to like him. Really like him. and I ( Read more... )