just checking up on a helljay community for work-related purposes and thought I'd check out the cobwebs on my account. wow, a full year+ since the last post. I'd like to say that my absence is indicative of a social life, ha, but... i think the absence really just is about a transfer of internet surfing/social media elsewhere ( Read more... )

i am starting to find peace. there will always be moments of panic and anxiety, but... it's finally starting to come around. so so grateful. there is a clarity in my future that I am just starting to bring into focus. nowhere close to what i expected but the peace makes everything else melt away. my heart is optimistic.

is North American media lulling Canadians into apathy as we take an elitist stance in our belief that we are "better than Americans ( Read more... )

all again i am reminded that i am alone at this point in life. my roots are itchy.
all i can do not to hop a bus to chicago, new york, or washington.

i am happy for the (possible) moment of career clarity last night.

dear helljay ( Read more... )

you is calm, you is smaaaaaht, you is impohtant ( Read more... )

had a special appointment at the gym today -- suspicions confirmed that my body can't tolerate "carbs" (fruits/veggies not included). i'd like to put that one on ma and pa and their bullshit dietary choices as i was a kid. because it's easy to blame someone else ( Read more... )

it shouldn't be this fucking hard.
whoops i just pulled a melissa leo.

anxious for test results... waiting game!

found this in the ole LJ archive, written Nov 4, 2004 (from an airport on my way to DFW ( Read more... )

mmmm... call it what you want, but really it just comes down to the fact that we haven't complemented each other's lives for quite some time now. we are both pretty strong willed in where we're headed, even if we're unsure of the actual end point. and i think the simple fact is that our end points are in considerable contrast to one another on the ( Read more... )