I have not written on here in a very long time. but tonight my words just need to be put somewhere.. anywhere. i cant have them alone in my head any longer. I am not doing well. Not at all. And although it may not appear to be way on the outside. I really am mentally struggling in life. And all im asking is that if you care, or maybe even if you ( Read more... )

I am going home tomorrow to say goodbye to my GG
she is dying from a tumor in her back that we found last friday.
she is such a wonderful woman and I know that it is time for her to be with God
...im just not ready to let her go.
im not ready

honestly.
im just tired of life

"I'm a kid that lives in the middle of no-where (or so it seems) so I spend a lot of time alone. I'm a perfectionist in some areas of my life (mainly academics) and a total mess in others."

this broke my heart tonight

God strip me of my comforts
and show me your will

I am tired. Its getting close to two and I am still working on a group project... even though that statment doesnt make any sense since I am doing it. gosh i hate group projects. studpidest thing ever. besides that.. i had a pretty intense crazy weekend.. with surprisingly not any of the romance expected for being so called "lovers day"...but thats ( Read more... )

i am running on an hour of sleep. I have class till 11. and tomorrow is hell as well.
i need strength.
thats all for now

post coming soon on how the people at my work are JUST LIKE THE OFFICE...
haa

you sit there inches away from the screen ( Read more... )

scratch that...
tonight sucks
i am very alone

i feel a little bit lonely. The holidays can get like that huh.. you know surrounded by everyone but at the same time just wondering why I feel like even though I have been in a house with people all day i feel like I am all by myself. And im not one of those people who EVER enjoy being alone. I would rather have someone just sit in the room rather ( Read more... )