So last night i was going through my shoe box of crap from a couple years ago and i found a poem that i wrote in like the 8th grade called "mistake" its so sad lol. god i was such a depressed little kid. well anyway after i read it i god this burst of insperation and wrote the other one in like 10 minutes. and yes hunny its about you.
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i got in a big fight with my mom and she ends up calling me a screw up. im just fucking sick of everyone in my family making me feel like shit. so i got wicked upset and cried in my room for like 10 minutes. i wanted to cut myself so bad. ive never in my life had the biggest urge to cut myself before. i felt like such a piece of shit. ive never ( Read more... )

o god im so bored. i woke up and of course no one was home. this happens every weekend. jes,becca, and my dad are at work and my mom hates being home with us so she goes out and spends massive amounts of money on the stupidest shit with my aunt. it pisses me off. i havent been to the mall with her to buy clothes in like 8 million months. she always ( Read more... )

ughhh im in such a bad mood right now for no reason at all. i hate when i get like this. everything and everyone is pissing me off. except for dan but ya i dont think he could ever piss me off. i have such a bad head ache and i feel like im going to explode. i slept for like 3 hours today and usually my head aches go away but ya they didnt. so now ( Read more... )

Ya melo is being a bitch right now. EEEEE my sister and shane are going back out! im so happy for her. i started crying when she told me lol. i kissed her like 34 times cause im a loser. i get too overly excited sometimes. ooo and she got accepted to westfield state! thats the best college in the state. and my mommy works there so she kinda was ( Read more... )

So erica decided to talk to me. yay. she told me "she loves me unconditionally and i make sense to her" hehe she was saying how she cant picture herself being best friends with anyone else. that made me so happy. im just like...relieved. i so didnt want to have to be best friends with alison. i would have killed myself in the end lol. i miss dan. a ( Read more... )

ooo blagh. im starting to really miss erica im so pissed. i dunno it like just hit me today that things will never be the same. like even if we become friends again ill always have this dark hatred for her. god i dont even want to be friends with her anymore. but shes like contemplating forgiving me..thats gay. how in gods name do you tell your ( Read more... )

I LOVE DAN. ive never met someone so great. he makes me so happy. i love everything about him. i love how he made me actually like myself, i love his eyes, the weird faces he makes, his laugh, his tummy, his hair, the way he always wants to smell like me, his weird o.c.d.ness, the way he hugs me, how he holds my hand in public, how im 20 times ( Read more... )

woo ya day before valentines! i am extatic. dan gave me a piece of paper with the "protractor of love" on it. hes so cute its amazing. everyone was like "why didnt dan get you a flower?" dude i dont need a flower to know he loves me. he could make me a paper flower and save 5 dollars and it would mean the same to me. i dont want him to spend money ( Read more... )

Well i dont have any friends. erica hates me and if she can get mike to be on her side. she can do anything. im so f-ing pissed. like 2 days before i was going to break up with dan a wicked long time ago i cut myself cause there was a lot of shit going on at my house and erica was mad at me. so i went to mikes house and we got wicked drunk and he ( Read more... )