I'm here. In Jersey. Everything is the same except it's even more dramatic than before.

Zak is an asshole.

I'm not happy anywhere anymore. Especially here.

I'm falling and I'm falling fast.

Clearwater, Florida. Oh man. There really is nothing to do. There's ntohing to really do here at the apartment at night. It's kinda gay. I'm hungry a little bit. Thirsty. I want a cigarette. I want to sleep ( Read more... )

Today my Mom and I drove six hours from North Carolina and we're finally in Florida. We're not quite at our new home yet because we made a pittstop at my Uncle Michael's house. We'll be staying here tonight. We would have kept driving except for the fact that we can't move into the apartment until Novemeber 1st ( Read more... )

I'm at my Mom's work again today. I come here a lot. At least everyday. Yesterday I got my first cavity filled and then I went and saw my best girl, Rhiannon. I stayed at her house until 9 pm. Yay!!! I haven't done that since before I left. I missed spending time at that house ( Read more... )

Today I went to my first NA meeting. It was good. I enjoy hearing what other addicts have to say. Or if they share their story. It's always so easy for me to relate to them, I love it but it scares me because I always thought that I was the only one feeling the way I did. No self-confidence or self-worth. Growing up and having everything was still ( Read more... )

I'm at Aquatic Visions. (My Mom's job.) I'm bored out of my mind and it doesn't help that it's just plain shitty outside. I called Becky but she's hanging out with Mike and his friend Kim. I called Deven and he's going to the Lounge. I'm not even going to bother calling anyone else because I'm just setting myself up for disappointment. Everyone has ( Read more... )

Back again ( Read more... )

I've been talking to like Zero of my friends. I suck. But I love Samm and even though I spend almost every waking moment with him, it still doesn't feel like enough. I want to live with him, so that I could just see him all of the time ( Read more... )

I started playing NeoPets. Yay ( Read more... )