oh wow its been almost a year since i updated on here.

the last time i updated is about the same person im updating about tonight. weird.

last wednesday the 1st court died.  im not doin good. at all.

pray

the end

it all fuckin came out.. he came clean..after me and megan caught him.. he did lie..and my heart is gonna burst. wait it already is. but i forgave him..because i care for him so much. and him and i have been through so much i dont want him to walk out of my life. i dont want him to disappear on me.

thank you megan for all this. im so glad you came ( Read more... )

how did this go wrong.  how can the on thing i love the most be slipping away through my fingers? the one person that used to love me  w/ all his heart..pushing me away. he says he loves me..but not as much..if you love someone..then you cant fall out of love. or it wasnt really love. i know it was love..because he claims to still love me. but to ( Read more... )

im in shock..thats allll i can say about that..:o(

ok so im gonna spill out my feelings..sue me.

i dont know exactly how i am feeling right now. i feel confused, lost, depressed, happy, worthless, not important, unconfident, not loved, alone, not special, scared, helpless, dead, kinda alive, mentally drained, phsyically drained, bummed, gone, blind from everyone...there is prob. more but those are ( Read more... )

wow guys its been like forever and a day since i updated. i have been real busy w/ work. and my mind has been elsewhere lately. so yeah sorry bout that. no one reads this anyways. but yeah

life has been goin alright. my heart i think cant take much more of guy crap they try to pull over your eyes. do they think im that stupid? this is the SECOND ( Read more... )

 
man i always seem to forget to write in here.. not like anyone reads this anyways..

i have been tons of busy lately. past 2 weeks at work i have been working nonstop..its crazy. my birthday was last sunday. it was nice. my b/f sent me roses. they were so beautiful. hes amazing.

back in december i think i wrote about me gettin in a car accident. ( Read more... )

weelllll

its been forever and a day since i updated. this site was giving me problems. anyways i been realllyyy busy lately. last wednesday i got into a car accident. the other person was changing lanes and didnt look or signel and she crashed into the passenger side of my car. the whole side is totaled. the doors wont open or anything. last friday ( Read more... )

nothing really been happening. just working and chillin at home and w/ friends. i went shopping again lol i cant help it. so yeah today i find out that someone else i know might be deployed to iraq soon. so he and his family are moving to NC i watch his kids at the daycare i work at. its really sad im really close to those kids. so yeah. me and my ( Read more... )

welp i voted today. i hope bush wins. i been praying for him. we really need a christian leader. and hes the man to do it lol. i dunno if i agree w/ the war in iraq but other than that, hes been a good pres. but its in God hands. so yeah

today was a pretty good day.  i took a nap! ooo i needed it i been really tired lately and im sick again. this ( Read more... )