I always thought it was strange for me to enjoy gay male porn but I just realized how many lesbians actually loved it... I'm glad I'm not alone.

I feel so scared... I'm living two different lives inside me and I'm not sure which path I should follow, which life I should choose and be happy... and if I only choose one, will I have been happier in the other ( Read more... )

I feel like I need to be hiding something to be happy... like whether I've broken the law or I'm sleeping with someone I shouldn't be. I haven't done anything wrong (wrong isn't really the right word but I can't think of anything to replace it with) lately and now I feel like I'm missing a part of me. I think I need to be lying to feel happy...

So dad went to the doc today... he goes like every other week so that's nothing out of the norm but they told him they're running out of options and according to all the test... my pops is dead. That's also not out of the norm b/c they've been telling him that for about 6 to 8 years now. I think my parents are going to actually start eating ( Read more... )

The more chips you have the more power you have... just remember the number of chips can drastically change in a matter of seconds.

Today I took Karmel to the vet, he wasn't too happy but he's got some kind of allergic reaction so we had to get him lots of medicine which cost me a pretty penny. I hope everything gets better soon now, I feel bad for my baby ( Read more... )

I'm ready for something crazy to happen... I'm slightly excited yet I have nothing planned. I think I'm going to go lay at the pool today... I need a tan horribly bad! 11am to 1pm I'll be burning by the pool, hopefully there won't be too many people out, I haven't lost enough weight yet. Not that I'm fat but I've gained quite a few extra pounds ( Read more... )

I'm really stressing about money lately... I'm moving to a new town and I'm trying to find a place to live there (which I think I've found) but I don't want to sign a lease there if I don't have a job already. I don't think it will be hard for me to find a job but I'm just worried that I won't make enough to be able to afford to live... I mean ( Read more... )

There are, as of right now, only two people I'd like to meet in the world that are still alive... ok I want to meet tons of people in general but two specific people ( Read more... )

I must be losing my mind... I think I want to fall in love, it might be nice to have something more than my pup at home waiting for me. I really miss having a kiss good night/morning. I'm sure these feeling will change before tomorrow gets here but this is me actually documenting that I have real feelings and might actually have a heart.