so last night was strange... i asked charles if he ever got together with this friend to tie up loose ends, and he said he had the night he went out with friends. but when i had talked to him that night he told me there were 2 girls from high school and his best friend there... he never mentioned this other chick being there. he swears he didn't ( Read more... )

i am so ridiculously happy right now. i <3 my boyfriend, so so so so much. heh

i really miss charles right now. a lot. i don't know why. but i really really really really really really miss him, and it is making me miserable right now. maybe because angie was here this weekend and it was like being back home, and he was part of my home the entire semester. i just want to be able to fall asleep in his arms again :-( 4 weeks ( Read more... )

he fell asleep and rolled over on his computer. so i didn't get anything. and tonight i asked him and i still didn't get anything. i really didn't think i was asking that much. i sent him an email telling him to just forget it, i'll stop asking. whenever i finally get them it can just be a surprise so i stop getting disappointed ( Read more... )

i'm really not happy right now. one stupid thing i asked for, not even all of it, just had to resize one fucking photo even and send it and he promised he would, and nothing. how fucking hard is it. i'm not that difficult to please, i really didn't think i was asking that goddamn much. and oh hey, guess what, 5 weeks till i get to see him. but i'm ( Read more... )

i just reread that small portion of the facebook string. apparently over winter break, we wrote 156 messages total. damn. haha ( Read more... )

so i don't know why but i asked charles about the night he and i got together. i mean i kinda know why. i guess i was looking to reaffirm how we started. that there was something there besides drunken sex. i guess i'm really self-doubting right now. god i haven't pmsed like this in ages. the past 4 months i had something to take my mind off of it. ( Read more... )

i doubt too much. every time i feel let down something good happens within the half hour. thank god i write in this thing now instead of sending him messages. this is working, haha

he got aim! :-D

5 weeks and 5 days. that's what his text said. i really miss him. i got teary eyed reading it. i saved it though. it comforts me to know he misses me as much as i miss him... he just deals with it better. he doesn't vocalize it quite as much as me. which is what i need to learn to do. blah. oh well. that text really meant a lot ( Read more... )