still mildly irritated. it's annoying that he is so busy and can't take the time to respond to 2 emails that were stupid or a text i sent. or the post i put on his facebook wall. i wish i were busy enough i just didn't care about this stupid stuff so much. **sigh** i keep trying the little things and it goes in spurts. right now i'm just... blah. i ( Read more... )

i don't know why, but i'm feeling really lonely right now. and i'm mildly irritated that my boyfriend got on facebook but couldn't be bothered to respond to my emails. **sigh** and i think i'm getting sick or something, i just feel like complete shit.

i hate pmsing. i'm ready to just curl up in a ball and cry the day away. fucking miserable.

so writing all that stuff last weekend seriously helped to clear my head. i've been acting like a normal person since ( Read more... )

so tonight is the first night i have ever been drunk and not come home to a significant other. it's really really lame. i love curling up with charles and falling asleep in his arms all buzzed. i guess otter is going to have to take his place. haha i guess i haven't ever mentioned otter... he's this stuffed animal charles really wanted when we went ( Read more... )

so this summer... what little there has been of it, is like a frickin rollercoaster of emotions for me ( Read more... )

studio needs to be over. now. i want it to be summer and i don't. the plus is i get to live right by hilton head in an apartment i pay my own rent for with my real job. the minus is i won't get to see my boyfriend except maybe twice over the summer. and the closer it gets to that, the more sad i am thinking about it. it's going to royally suck.

so i haven't posted in a month... let's see... as of today charles and i have been dating 3 months. hurray :-) we talked the other day and really want to try and make it work over the summer, which i know we can do. i like how we've clicked, it's nice ( Read more... )

so after a week in a ditch, i realized i'm far happier now than i have been in over a year. i am feeling so much more independent- from my family, and just on my own. i feel much more comfortable being the person i am. i don't try to hide anything or feel ashamed about anything. it's amazing.

studio blows. no concert this weekend.

I BOUGHT A CAR ( Read more... )

ok so i just spent the last 10 minutes privating all my entries. if anyone wants to read anything, make sure you are logged in. bitch is livejournal stalking me, when she never should have gotten the link in the first place, because scott swears he didn't give it to her. so how the fuck did she get it. so much for me being able to clear my head in ( Read more... )