oh ali *neverending hugs* I'm sorry you've been going through this and felt you had to hide it :(
I know what it's like to have these dominating thoughts about your body and your being going through your head~ i have it every day. Stay strong and believe that you are an awesome, intriguing, inspiring, creative and beautiful person. Sometimes I'll just be thinking about who I am and I quite often wish I was more like you! You are someone who has taught me how to appreciate little things, to enjoy the world. You helped me change the way I look at the world. I just wish I could make you all better! Keep loving yourself, my wonderful aligrub *love* I'm here if you need an ear <3 xxxx
I want to cope with life. I will never for a second believe life is not worth living.
In those two sentences you just proved that you are NOT nothing. In fact, you're probably braver and more mature than most people just by acknowledging how you feel, and what you can do to change it. I could go on and on, but the gist of all I'd like to say is just:
Alice = beautiful and facsinating and awesome. :)
And expect a well-overdue hug from me in July! Until then, if you ever need to rant, you know how to contact me.
I don't know how you do it. I honestly don't. I know we've had many a long conversation about how similar we are but this time... You've managed to so perfectly articulate exactly what I - am/was/i don't even know anymore - going through. I have tried so hard, and you have done it. And that in itself proves you are something. The ability to not only articulate but express... Alice. You are a million times more than a million times more than nothing. Rachel's right. This entry has shown that you are more mature, brave and fascinating than you realise. But I do understand. The physical image; the dreaming; the wanting, the yearning to be someone/something else. But that's all I can do. I can understand and relate and listen. Listen especially. I am always, always here. But you know that.
You are worth something. I wish that I was there, gripping your shoulders as I say this, so that you could appreciate the fervour in my normally-subdued voice: you are *worth* something.
Exhibit A: if you weren't, would we all care about you so much? It's no facade that we love; it's you. I'm sorry to read about these thoughts of yours (doubly so if the Parking Lot Experiments played any part in their germination...), but you should never, ever feel that you need to hide them. You are Alice, and for that implacable reason alone I can feel assured - you will get through this mire, weary and tearful and unbeaten, and be yet stronger from it.
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I know what it's like to have these dominating thoughts about your body and your being going through your head~ i have it every day. Stay strong and believe that you are an awesome, intriguing, inspiring, creative and beautiful person. Sometimes I'll just be thinking about who I am and I quite often wish I was more like you! You are someone who has taught me how to appreciate little things, to enjoy the world. You helped me change the way I look at the world. I just wish I could make you all better! Keep loving yourself, my wonderful aligrub *love* I'm here if you need an ear <3 xxxx
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Just, thankyou. the world already seems a bit less isolating. you're too kind. you inspire me. xo
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In those two sentences you just proved that you are NOT nothing. In fact, you're probably braver and more mature than most people just by acknowledging how you feel, and what you can do to change it. I could go on and on, but the gist of all I'd like to say is just:
Alice = beautiful and facsinating and awesome. :)
And expect a well-overdue hug from me in July! Until then, if you ever need to rant, you know how to contact me.
xo.
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I can't wait to see/hug you again.
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I know we've had many a long conversation about how similar we are but this time...
You've managed to so perfectly articulate exactly what I - am/was/i don't even know anymore - going through. I have tried so hard, and you have done it. And that in itself proves you are something. The ability to not only articulate but express... Alice. You are a million times more than a million times more than nothing. Rachel's right. This entry has shown that you are more mature, brave and fascinating than you realise.
But I do understand. The physical image; the dreaming; the wanting, the yearning to be someone/something else.
But that's all I can do. I can understand and relate and listen.
Listen especially. I am always, always here. But you know that.
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That's my perception of you.
*hug*
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Exhibit A: if you weren't, would we all care about you so much? It's no facade that we love; it's you.
I'm sorry to read about these thoughts of yours (doubly so if the Parking Lot Experiments played any part in their germination...), but you should never, ever feel that you need to hide them. You are Alice, and for that implacable reason alone I can feel assured - you will get through this mire, weary and tearful and unbeaten, and be yet stronger from it.
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