Brad (ages 13 - early 15) I thought I loved him, he thought we were friends. oops ( Read more... )

I've been yelling at myself all morning. I can't do this. I shouldn't even talk to him. I'm only gonna fall for him again and i swore I'd never let him hurt me again. I know I'm gonna ruin things with Dan over this. Somethings gonna happen and its all gonna go to hell. I'm so pissed off and messed up and confused and this is just opening old wounds ( Read more... )

which is why im posting it here, rather than my more public journal.

i think ive decided to stay in the states for school.

ive been doing a lot of thinking.

and i can be me..wherever i am. and there are too many people here that i would miss too much.

i dont know where ill go instead. but i dont think im leaving forever.

...since i was too shocked to write last night ( Read more... )

...michael called me tonight.

*squeak* i have a boy. His name is Dan. We met last Friday and kinda flirted for a while and then i looked him up on facebook and in a series of embarassing events, started talking and he asked me to meet him for dinner at the lodge and we had a really awesome awkward evening and then we went to Dunkin Donuts at 2:30 AM and then decided that since ( Read more... )

Some memories should not be revisited ( Read more... )

i am pursuing Nic to no avail...he doesn't see me that way. I dont even know if he likes me as a friend. i dont know what to do ( Read more... )

I emailed Tad with my final verdict. I can't do it anymore. Its not what I need. I'm lying to the both of us. What we have in person is something..but what we have now and constantly is nothing and I can't do it.

so its over. this whole mess is over.

i want to go to Scotland now.

So Tad wants to maybe sorta kinda get back together only not try to make it work long distance but he doesnt want to not date me or not date other people but hes always gonna love me and will always be here if I decide to come back and im really confused that didnt even make sense ( Read more... )