well fine i guess i'm just a fuckin idiot then. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckin shit. i'm such a fuckin asshole. i can't believe i'm such a fucking asshole. forget about the whole damn thing. fuck it. its a brand new year with the same old luck.

my head is going around and around in circles. somebody give me something else to think about ( Read more... )

you are postmodern in the worst sense. your only goal is to be as fucked up as possible so that people will feel bad for you and try to help you. but consider that if someone did try to help you it would only thwart your goal of being as fucked up as possible. why waste everyone's time and energy for no damn good reason ( Read more... )

god it was a pretty horrible day. one of those days where you just feel so fucking insignificant. i feel like if i died no one would even give a shit. they would just go on with their partying and mention it as some anecdote just to get attention..."man, did you hear what happened? i was like friends with that chick..." but no one would really ( Read more... )

holy shit ( Read more... )

My ankle is bruised and cut from my anklet. but i refuse to take it off because i still have hope. thats what it stands for after all. and my legs and pajamas are cut up from the springs on my bed. i am safe untill i jerk in a dream and wake up trying to scream and am bleeding with another scar that will last for months. i turn 18 relatively ( Read more... )

i have blind faith. that everything will work out. of course blind faith doesn't make the sale to my parents or consular or to anyone else for that matter. so what am i gonna do. its just that life doesn't scare me and i don't give a damn about college. so no amount of sideways glances can get me to undo what i have built up over the years.

i make a disgraceful telemarketer. the other kids laugh at me cuz i can't sell a damn thing...the boss' threaten to fire me...and apparently nobody speaks english in this whole goddam country! so i decided to take matters into my own hands and got another job. now the only problem is getting out of this one. it takes two weeks to quit; it takes ( Read more... )

"b0wchiKaw0w0w: i think you and amy dk shit about what i want and assume horrible things about me like that i would hit on the guy you like..."

god i hate fucking christmas. and this year will be the best cuz i don't even have friends who care about me.

i feel like the world has turned into Beetlejuice land. the trees have become spiders and there is no color left anywhere. there's just that feeling that something is going to jump out at you behind every corner. and this place is filled with only sleazy kids and druggies because all the good kids have gone to bigger and better things. and i ( Read more... )