jimbo....is moving in with me. yes.

i would hold the key...

i am alive. call me or text me. 238-2419.

i learned what love is...

so i guess everybody had a pretty great 4th. mine was ok. it had its good parts. and it had a lot of bad parts. so around 11 i went with JIMBO (are you happy now :) just kiddin) and ate and saw a movie. it was good to hang out with him again. i haven't done that in a long time. i've missed him. we shot fireworks at cars ( Read more... )

i can't keep my eyes off of you...

i haven't updated in a long time. thats ok though. the past two days have been crazy. i was at work talking to j.t. and seth and of course i had to ask them. i was relieved when they told me. i didn't know if i was ready to feel everything again. then...i saw him. i couldn't stop myself from crying. just feeling ( Read more... )

what i pretend to be...

yikes...lately it has been rough. still...i'm not gettin any better. i've been spending most of my time with ash and the guys. i've missed them a lot. j mill, jas, james, shork, casey, steven, shane, layne, and everybody. ash has been the best. providing me with lots of encouraging words and support. i don't know where i ( Read more... )

pretend that you're feelin a little more pain...

i am tired of this. dreamin about him. waking up crying. i can't handle it. it sucks. i don't know if i've ever been this heartbroken. oh well...i just hope he is happy. because that is all i want for him. i'm goin to be ok. i think. it's just goin to take me a lot of time. on the other hand...more ( Read more... )

let me clear some things up...

let me just make a list of some rumors that have been ruining relationships, friendships, and my life :

me and kevin plash had sex...NOT TRUE.
THAT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN. CONSIDERING AT THE TIME I HAD A BOYFRIEND I LOVED WITH ALL MY HEART and NATALIE IS HIS EX GIRLFRIEND. NO MATTER HOW MUCH BULLSHIT IS BETWEEN ME AND NAT ( Read more... )

the worst is over...you can have the best of me...

yesterday, my world came crashing down. it was horrible. definitely had a really rough time. i went to ash's at about 4. we left her house about 9. went to po boy. got food. ate a hammerhead, chips, and french fries. yeah. i'm a cow. sat around. watched lemony snicket and clerks. i LOVE randall ( Read more... )

i wish you still loved me...

dear patrick,
i love you. with every peice of my heart. every bone in my body. every breath i take. i love you. no matter what happens with us, i will always have a place for you in my heart. no one can take that away from me. i will always love you. even if you decide you don't want to be with me, it will kill me, but i ( Read more... )

steal my breath...

i don't know what to do anymore. he was the best thing that ever happend to me. the most positive thing i have ever had in my life. i love him with all my heart. and yet again...i lost him. over lies. the worst part is, i care about him, more than life itself, and i know good and damn well that it is up to him to decide. i know ( Read more... )