So, something happened yesterday. I feel like I have been kicked in the stomach and have no air left to breathe. Someone put my feet back on the ground please, I want it to be normal again. Oh, and I feel like I hate him now...... please tell me I dont...

howdy folks.. moved to canton, dont have internet yet, give me a call if u wanna talk to me (883-1115), life is ok, school is horrendous, blah. blah.. blah...

so I just realized that today is february 10th. And being february 10th is exactly one year since I have been with billy. I dont know if I am happy or sad about this. I mean god knows I am happy to be away from billy, but seriously now, a whole year of feeling alone and not having a VERY serious relationship. I have had a relationship, but not to ( Read more... )

so I've been really depressed lately, and even to the point of liek skipping class just to lay in bed all day and cry, and not talk to anyone about it, or tell anyone. I think it might be the whole valentines day thing, I need a valentine. Not necessarily a boyfriend, just someone who cares about me and wants to make me feel special that day. I

I'm tired of being lied to, u know I really hate it... You'd think if people were ur real friends they would have the decency to tell you the truth, but who am I, I dunno...

only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me
yeah....

so greg tells me I should update this, even though I have no life. Lets see, today was another endless cycle of work and school, only today is MUCH better because I have the stomach flu. Think I am getting sick again, this should be fun. Brett told me to suck it up, maybe I should....

it would be soooo easy just to put an end to all this suffering right now... too bad my brother loves me

so I'm moving, my mom is kicking us out of the house, and I dont know where I am going. Donnie and Christy want me to move up north, and I have my reasons for wanting to be up north, but my reason doesnt feel the same way, and I dont wanna be stuck up there if my reasoning is pointless. They said they would house me and pay for CNA classes, and I ( Read more... )

So I am sitting here in the library waiting for 2 and a half hours before my next class starts, and I'm wondering "I am sitting here thinking of all these different friends, I wonder if they ever think about me?" and I dunno its kinda a stupid thought because I know I think about people a lot more than they think about me. wow, this is a really ( Read more... )