yeah. my lj is jacked up. i know it is... but I dont know how to fix it. anyone, anyone? anyway... not much has been going on with me. I basically live in myspace, now. ahahah, I joined the trend! anyway, yeah. im a loser. Bobby's at work right now. it makes me sad. ;x

If there is any word, it is most definitely cheated. Sometimes, I wonder if life is just full of shit. And then I realize... I know life is full of shit. So why am I wondering? Who knows, though. I just wish I could clean up the shit. I wish I could erase the past two years. I wish I would've taken everything more seriously... I wish I would've ( Read more... )

And as I grow weaker, in my desperation,
I cry... I need you. And I hate myself for it.

I don't know what to do, anymore. I feel so lost, so incomprehensible. I feel like a language no one knows. I feel... broken. I can't remember ever having felt this way. There is no hope, nothing. My confidence... Gone. My pride, erased. My person... changed. I will never be the same for this and I regret having to be forced through this hurt. I am ( Read more... )

We broke up... And he had sex with her. He admits it, he admits fucking that bitch. I am so pissed, right now. Danielle schemed and plotted to get them together, alone, and she did and that bitch came onto him and he just let her... Excuse me, but can someone tell me what I did wrong, here? I have wronged neither of them. I gave up my life to have ( Read more... )

We broke up.
I don't know what to do.
What should I do?

`` I'm falling down, I'm falling down, and you're not there to break my fall. I shut my eyes when you're around, I hold my breath to kill the sound... ``

So I have come to the conclusion that trust is the biggest mistake one can possibly make. In my honesty, my time as a jaded, scheming, hating human being, I still haven't wronged those that are truly close to me in any way that will leave permanent scarring, but those closest to me feel the need to do so to me. I put so much trust in those I ( Read more... )

`` Keep it cool, she doesn't want to lose it... ``

I hate myself. Ugh. I went to the mall the other day, Friday, to go shopping. I had a $100 gift card to Cherryvale, a $25 gift card to Cherryvale, $45 to Khol's, and $65 cash and guess what? Right after I spent the $100 at Hollister, I went to JC Penny... and some fucking bitch stole my Goddamned ( Read more... )

`` Pay attention ``

Well, my Christmas was alright, I guess. I got a photo printer that works with all different kinds of digital cameras as long as they have a memory card. It's really cool. You can put little picture frames with pooh and the disney princesses on it. It's neat. You can do everything, even make it black and white, sepia, crop, ( Read more... )

`` And throw me away... ``

Sometimes, the people you think you can count on are the ones you really can't. There's a sickness between us and it's a cancer... Incurable. There's a distance, a hatred she approves within our selves and there's nothing I'm willing to do to change that. There's no peace, no happiness, no nothing but cruelty and ( Read more... )