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[laceygirl]

Tonight, after fourteen years, I came to the realization that I will battle depression for the rest of my life. Being pregnant didn't "fix" it, and her birth made it rage. It's not a visitor that I will eventually boot out after a worn-out welcome, saying, "Phew, I'm glad that's over!" That Moment will never come, that moment I've always waited for

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[cindereli]

laceybear it's been so long but I truly hope you're doing well. This post absolutely touched my heart (like so many of your posts in the past have) and as terrible as it sounds, lately I've been feeling what you've described and yet it helps to know I'm not alone. Always remember that you're an inspiration and by getting through the constant waves of these emotions, it reassures me that I can do the same.

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[laceygirl]

Reli? Is it really you?? To hear from you is like a voice coming through the dark, from my past, warm and bright. I've missed you. :) I'm sorry to hear that you can relate to this post at all, but I'm glad to hear that it reached someone. I'd actually forgotten that I posted it -- I think it was originally meant to be 'private,' but I've never been much for holding back on LiveJournal, heh. You all are some of the few people in my life who read and heard everything I felt in those years (and when I post now, once in a while). Isn't that funny to think of? That we knew more about each other than probably our 'real-life' friends and family did? Anyway, thanks for commenting/getting back in touch. It's good to know that when I come back here, there may still be some familiar faces hanging around!