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Update
So I live in New York now. Noelani too of course. We've been living with John for 2 months now. I got a new job too. Things are going well. I miss my family and friend though ( Read more... ) -
fuck
You are right. I've just been having a hard time lately. I feel like a crappy mom. I do the best I can but It isn't good enough. I feel guilty that I brought Noelani into the world when we weren't ready to have kids. It was my poor decision that got her the dad she has. And it's my fault that I split up our family. I feel so bad for her because ( Read more... ) -
What's so special about Mother's Day?
Honestly Mother's Day has me all depressed. I feel like shit. There's nothing special about today. It's just like any normal day. Only a little worse. My kid doesn't know. I'm super jealous of all the moms with kick ass husbands who make them feel special. I don't feel special. I feel guilty. I love my kid and I wouldn't give her up. But I feel ( Read more... ) -
My first lucid dream
background: Just a couple days ago I learned how to cleanse my chakras. One of the ways OS through meditation which I tried and succeeded on the first try. It opened up my chakras enough so that I became more aware. Last night I was sampling ganja food. I ate even more right before bed time and it knocked me right out ( Read more... ) -
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i was just reading a previous entry i wrote on april 22. I wrote "the stork has landed" which is now significant. at the time i didnt know i was pregnant. We conceived on our anniversary april 12. hmmm... -
6 months!
Time has started to slow down a bit. I am getting slower too. and fatter. seems like all the sudden this week. bam ive gained 3 pounds and waddle. I am eating more but thats because i am hungry like ALL the time. at my last appointment, little baby weighed 14 ounces! Compared to my sister who is only three weeks behind me, her little princess was ( Read more... ) -
more baby stuff because it's the only thing on my brain
Don't know who all reads this anymore but...
i find out the baby's gender next week and i think i might die of anticipation.
i thought it might be fun to take a little poll and see what everyone else thinks.
Team Pink or Team Blue? -
the joy of pregnancy
17 weeks pregnant. almost half way there! The morning sickness hasn't gone away yet and now i get dizzy a few times a week. The good side is that i have some more energy now. David Corey and I go out at least once a week. We've been to Tee Jays and gone swimming. We went to the mall and to see a movie. We didn't make it to the zoo this week like ( Read more... ) -
3 months pregnant
I had my first ultrasound yesterday. Which means i got my first baby picture! it looks like a peanut with a hand. if you look closely you can see its face, its spine, its lil feets and the umbilical cord. Still cant tell what gender it is yet. But my psychee says its a girl ( Read more... )