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heh, i almost forgot to talk about thanksgiving. what a wierd day. i had been up for like 2 days before it, i went to levi's and ate lots of food. levi fell asleep and i had a heart to heart with levi's dad about the end of the world and how everyone is going to die and the world will just get harder and harder to live in ( Read more... )

it feels like there is a war going on in my brain. been talking to alot of people lately. for the past 3 hours i think my brain has died on me

im sick of hearing about all whos going to jenis funeral. you have to think, would she go to yours? the next time i see jeni i,m dead, she was my life. fuck everything else. fuck it. fuck all you posers who jeni hated. fuck you. you aint nothing but some bitches. you dont know how to love jeni till you loved her like me, i was there, you ( Read more... )

im home. i didnt realize how much of a scene i was causing. i just needed to get out of my house. my bedroom is like a jeni bensend shrine. i had always kept a picture of her next to my bed so she was the first person i saw every morning. i loved that girl so much. i;m scared to go on without her. the funeral is gonna turn me into a fucking ( Read more... )

i talked to jeni's mom and the reason there arent any set funeral arrangements is that they are having money trouble. jeni's dad is trying to take out a loan. they need help. if anyone has anything they can give to them to help out it would make things so much better. thank you.

the more time that goes by the more it hurts. i just keep missing her more and more. i wish i oculd talk to her again. i want to hear her voice. i want to fall asleep next to her. i want to feel her arms around me again. i'd do anything to just be with her for one more day.

rip cuteface

you were the most beautiful girl ever to walk the face of this earth. i will never forget you or fall for anyone else as hard as i fell for you.

you+me=us
forever

fuck

i am having a breakdown

people dont know what happened so i'm going to clear everything up. the other night jeni was in alot of pain and she was having a severe breakdown. she told me she wanted to kill herself so i had to get over to her house. i stole my neighbors bike and rode it to the end of my street. i cant ride a bike for shit so i ended up crashing it and ( Read more... )

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