will I be rid of all the inconsiderate fucks which abound?

So I'm coming to realize that the secret hope I've always held onto about myself and my life is most likely just a falsely contrived delusion. Coming to the understanding that delusion is truly that, a delusion, and nothing more is slightly cathartic, mostly depressing ( Read more... )

How long does one wait to realize that their validity as a person is tantamount to the same feelings of nothingness they've felt their entire life. When does one realize that this person you always suspected you'd blossom into isn't actually there, and you're faced with the daunting reality that you're most likely just a complete dud. Why you can't ( Read more... )

I know now tat being in love leaves you vulnerable. I'm always the cynical bastard who doesn't believe in these kinds of things. Tom showed me that it's okay to be vulnerable, and it's okay love, and its okay to be me, and that I am loved ( Read more... )

So, I have this thing where I subconsciously set myself up for failure if and whenever possible. I feel better than I have in years, but I still can't shake the feeling that my lot in life is to struggle. I understand that everyone has problems. I just don't deal with mine. So they compound and eventually make me sick. It's all I've ever known ( Read more... )

I fantasize about the magical day when I can be in a real relationship. I want to desperately to be loved. I can't even express it ( Read more... )

So, I'm just suppose to have all this shit figured out. I'm suppose to be a strong person and roll with the punches and deal with shit like a "normal" person. But I have just now come into my own because I am finally allowing myself to be who i am. and Love myself. The sad part is that sometimes it feels like the people who should love you most, ( Read more... )

all over your skin.

This is the first time I've logged in to lj in a long time. Still a wasteland.

I haven't updated in a while ( Read more... )

Florida was, and is still being good to me.