i don't understand what is wrong with me. why do i keep meeting all these stupid guys? i have bi-polar, dumb as bricks, and master...bater. that isnt much. the master...bater makes dumb as bricks look like einstein and they together make the bi-polar one look like gold. but he was always gold in my eyes. he seemed to be the one that cared the most ( Read more... )

i really dont know what to think right now. matt told me that i was a control freak, whiney when things don't go my way, and a stalker. i remember promising myself after eric controlled my life that i wouldn't let it happen again and that since i didn't like being controlled i wouldn't do that to anyone else. if things don't go my way which they ( Read more... )

well matt is out of the pic. at first i thought i wouldn't care if that happened but only b/c i have been on my own for so long and guys come and go but when he hung up the phone on me today i was upset. maybe it was just soo unexpected i'm not sure. i am still figuring things out on my own b/c most of my dating life i was controlled by a certain ( Read more... )

not much going on right now. matt keeps iming me and asking if i'm not speaking to him. i think that as of right now i really shouldn't b/c he called me a bitch. i'm sorry but when anyone calls me a bitch and means it or any other choice words i don't speak to them ever again. only i am too nice of a person and usually forgive the first time if it ( Read more... )

for some reason i am in a weird mood. i felt like crying earlier or kind of the past couple of days and i can't figure out why. maybe i just need a good cry. i know i was really upset when i found out matt called me a bitch. i can understand why and i don't know why i was acting the way i was but a lot of things were making me upset that night. my ( Read more... )

wow finally an update. well things certainly have been weird lately. me and matt seem to be getting further and further apart. i really do believe now that it is my fault and i didn't mean to get him mixed up in any of this. so to him i am truly truly sorry. things have been funny though. work got better and worse at the sametime. i love and will ( Read more... )

SHERRI I MISS YOU TOO ( Read more... )

name: Pamela Borra ( Read more... )

Remember one thing: Never give up on your dreams ( Read more... )

I've decided to make my journal friends only. So if you would like to read my journal just comment and I'll add you ( Read more... )