I have read that the most toxic work enviroment is where you put a lot of efforts with very little reward. Sounds like PhD? Yep ( Read more... )

People say when you get older you start to accept yourself as you are. Sometimes I am happy being me. But at the same time I am afraid of that feeling, because it means that I am getting old.

I decided to continue the blog. I am usually too lazy to open it and write something down, or think it worthless to trough my little thoughts into something as big as Internet. But overtime I do want to recall my feelings about some events and wish I had a post about it.
Since my account name is lady_success, I consider myself on the path to ( Read more... )

Recently I had many depressing thoughts. I do not know, may be being depressed is my comfort zone and I just try to get into it by any means; or it is simply the effect of hypothyroidism or the drug’s side effect. I was thinking whether I am wasting my life. Just yesterday I realized that no such thoughts are needed. I really have to stop ( Read more... )

Очень редко общаюсь в людьми за пределами Академии. Но когда общаюсь, постоянно возникают проблемы ( Read more... )

На фоне убийсвенной боли в мышцах около локтевого сгиба после пятничной тренировки в голову лезут мысли о теле. Есть несколько вещей, которые я не понимаю. Вот она разница культур ( Read more... )

Мне сегодня приснилось, что я бомжую в Москве. У меня даже специальный проездной был, от патриарха.Т. сказал, что уже докатилась я до того,что предпочла бы бомжевать в Москве, чем жить в НЙ.
Можно было бы подумать,что я перечитала новостей, но вот уже месяц или больше, я не  читаю никаки новостей, поддерживаю мозг в хорошей форме.

Экзамены написаны, но не проверяны. Не буду писать про свои слезы, истерики и заявления на работе в стиле "я устала, я ухожу", про попытки привить мне чувство вины и про все то, что способно навевать тоску ( Read more... )

My life is miserable now. I live in my own jail. I have never blamed myself so much for not archiving anything before ( Read more... )

When we were in Dresden I had no idea about the origin of the burns on the buildings and the bridge. Why had I never encounter this aspect of the World War II ? The city which had no war related object had been bombed on February 13, 1945 and destroyed ( Read more... )