well, i'm feeling better, so i guess that's a plus. i think this "diet" is gonna make me lose some weight. all i can really eat is ice cream and pudding packets, and i've only had four of those since my surgery. i'm starving, but it hurts to eat. this pain has gotten to the point where it's not unbareable, but it still hurts pretty bad. i'm ( Read more... )

i'm back from my surgery! it felt as if i'd just gone to sleep, and then one minute later they told me it was all over. it was weird, but cool in a way. my throat is starting to hurt. all the guaze in my mouth is soaking up everything and it's becoming extremely dry. i really wanna just go to sleep, but i can't until my dad comes home with my dumb ( Read more... )

well, just a fair warning that i might now be around all that much for the next couple of days. i've gotta go under in an hour for my wisdom teeth. i'm really scared right now, and i'm gonna feel like complete and utter crap for a week. i'll be spending most of my time in bed eating pudding and ice cream while drowning myself in the fantasies of ( Read more... )

i don't know how much longer i can go on without knowing what the fuck is wrong with my body! of course, people are convinced that it's all part of my obsessive compulsive stupidness, but i'm not. lately, like for the past week or so, my joints have been really aching me. my knees are the worst, and my wrists, elbows and ankles don't seem to like ( Read more... )

i saw scott up at blockbuster again tonight. well, it was last night, really. i wasn't sure if he'd be up there or not, but of course i was thrilled when i saw that he was. god, he's a flirt. i'm not too sure how to go about talking to him when my mom's around. the guy is so adorable that i just go silent ( Read more... )

well, a special congradulations to shawn and andrea! yay! the wedding was beautiful, and i wish them all the best. andrea looked gorgeous (and not pregnant!, lol) in the gown i helped her find. and shelly looked equally stunning, as usual. although, i am kinda pissed at her. at the reception she and i were out on the patio dancefloor with my first- ( Read more... )

alright, well i just got back from the emergency room, and although they didn't take any x-rays, they're assured that my leg is fine. i guess i'll just have to trust their instincts. i just wanted to let everyone know i was okay, lol. anyway, i gotta get a little sleep before i'm off to shawn and andrea's wedding. yay! and omg, i just realized that ( Read more... )

i think i'm gonna give medifast a second shot. i know for a fact that i really didn't try my hardest the first time around. i also know that if i rely on god, he'll give me the strength i need to pull through it all somehow. i really feel like god's telling me to go for it, so i'm gonna. i've always wanted a miracle cure, and this is as close as i' ( Read more... )

i seriously think i have phlebitis (a blood clot) in my leg. yeah, but no one will listen to me! fuckers.

yesterday (monday) was a fairly good day. i woke up at about eight to my grandma screaming that bo was gonna be on the today show, lol. thanks, g! around four cathy came over and we ordered pizza and watched the phantom of the opera. she fell in love, lol. i knew she would, tho. i'm always getting her hooked on my random obsessions, lol. there's ( Read more... )