It’s truly unnerving.  A few weeks ago I got attitude when mentioning doing a shoot from him.  It was like I was hiding something because he’s never went.  I reaffirmed then that he was invited to come along anytime he wanted.  He said nothing at that point and time moved on.

This morning he mentioned that he had interest in going tonight with me.  ( Read more... )

I can only hope and pray that March is nothing like February! February sucked and I'm ready to move past it. It's a hard enough from me usually do to my seasonal depression, but this year was extra hard (except for Brian coming to town, that's always the best ( Read more... )

February has sucked more then usual this year.  I’m sure a lot it has to do with the changes in my personal life and the stress of things around me.  I keep reminding myself, just a few more weeks and the sun will be out again.  Just a few more months and I’ll be in spaghetti straps again, not to much longer and I’ll have the big clunky sandals on ( Read more... )

My brothers and I have connected on myspace today. It might seam a small thing to most people, but come on how much of what I show on my page do you think I would share with my brothers? In case I have not mentioned, by brothers are 16 and soon to be 18. I would think some things on my page maybe a bit too adult for them... but then I was there ( Read more... )

There is so many real things going on: moving, "procedures" (notice the s on the end) at the doctors, cycle class (signed up for March 30 - April 2nd Miss Amanda) with my dad.  Yes, there's a hell of a lot going on, but rather then go into any of that, let's reflect on the past (like I haven't been doing that enough lately....)

HOW MUCH HAVE YOU ( Read more... )

You Are 64% Scary
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I feel like shit!  I nearly made it home, ok no not really.  I made it half way to 275 and had to have Nik pull over.  Then, again, in the apartments he had to pull over.  I love Captain, but he don't love me.  Gotta stay away from dark liquor!  I think I need to go back to sleep and wake up feeling better....

The last few weeks have been difficult for me.  I don't think I realize how truly hard they were until I started to feel "normal" again today.  Today is the first time since the accident I've put make-up on before work.  Nik and I went bike shopping after work and we climbed on one of two we were are looking at.  It left good to feel like a " ( Read more... )

I can't even type, but so all knows what's going on, an old fuck turned out in front of Nik and I on Thursday night.  Motorcycle accidents, not fun!  Call if you'd like to hear all about it.  If I don't answer I'm sleeping.

Third attempt at this one simple entry...  It's hard at times to find words to convey what the heart feels.  Words when it comes to EvilMalek are always hard to find.  He is a very special person to me.  He knows me like no other that walks this plain of existence.  We've both made mistakes in the past, both found disappointments with and in each ( Read more... )