How quickly the years are moving.  All ready I find myself looking into the mirror, ready to see myself turn another year older.  The 30's... not as "crazy" as your 20's but far scarier.  I feel like stupid decisions can no longer be made as I am now a full blow "grown up" and have been since I turned 30 two years ago.  But I am not here to deal ( Read more... )

Just another day... Makes it all sound simple huh?  It's never that simple.  I don't think I could "deal with" a simple, average life.  Perhaps that makes my life sound more interesting then it is ( Read more... )

Has it been 4 months already?  Wow, I need to update more often.  Being the obsessive that I am, I am of course thinking to much about the news Pants gave me on Sunday; she's getting married.  I should be all excited for her and helping her plan her wedding as her best friend.  Instead I am trying emotionally to deal with all the feelings I feel ( Read more... )

I'm stuck back where I was five months ago ( Read more... )

And I can't get a damn thing done. I just wonder from room to room trying to find the energy, while getting lost in the conversations of the last few days. It just boggles my mind, what happened. My sadness has turned to anger in many ways. Angry that someone would even try to put another person that they love in a situation of "them or I". ( Read more... )

Daddy's right... I would have done anything for you ( Read more... )

I'm one of "those girls". Those girls that are "one of the guys"; we drink beer and do shots with you, I'll point out a pair of perfect tits for you, I sit at "loser row" at the strip club because I like to tip the girls and will even get a lap dance. We are just sexual as any man and think about getting some each and everyday ( Read more... )

It's as if I could be sitting here with my Grandma right now...
I say that cause I am watching Garth Brooks (she was a fan) on her tv, drinking her Kahlúa and smelling her perfume. Some people may find that creepy... but that's how I deal with things.
It's nice to know she will always be here with me... I just hope I don't disappoint her.

I’ve been sitting here for the last two hours feeling angry and not sure why.  It’s clear to me now.  Earlier you mentioned taking Laura with you to your mom’s and I asked you not to.  Because of the past, because of how you mom likes to use things like that as ammunition.  And even if everyone but your mom understands the friendship between you ( Read more... )

 
Not much to say… prolly more then I’m willing to admit.  Change is a coming; I can feel it growing within myself.  I feel I am making myself first in my life for the first time ever.  I grew up thinking to put yourself first was selfish and Lord knows I wanted to be anything but selfish, or at least so selfish that others could see it… feel it.  ( Read more... )