it is 4:16am... why i am still awake i dunno.... i can't sleep....... i'm so sad ....... yes i hurt myself today..... i regret it now... i'm going to have to wear long sleeves in hot weather.. i hate life so much... i love kenton beyond reason.. i'm foolish..... i think tomorrow, when i wake up i'm going to start all over again.. i'll FORCE myself ( Read more... )

well i am still awake at 3:39am and i'm dead tired but i can't sleep mentally i dunno.. i watched mxc today it was bluffin hilarioush! asian people kick man.. it seems like i don't have time for anything anymore but at the same time i feel like i waste the day away.. i really want that job at sally's beauty supply soo bad.. and i feel like i've ( Read more... )

my body keeps on hiccuping.. it hurts kinda oh well... ralph maccio is cute from the karate kid.. shoot, so i found gaylord on myspace semi incidentally... and he likes the same stuff i do.. what a breast tumor man.. most guys are jackwads anyways.. i miss kenton darnit.. i was so hormonal today i started crying for no apparent reason heheh.. yay i ( Read more... )

wowers!! it's been FOREVER!! well, my hair is at it's natural color and that makes me happy.. i'm allllllllmost finished with school but at this point i feel like i'm never gonna get out of there sheesh.. just two more weeks.. i'm so dead in the morning though i don't know what's going on and i turn off the alarm and i'm like @_@.. sometimes i hate ( Read more... )

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i'm off to the thrift store.. i need a couple new shirts or pants or something ( Read more... )

do spiders take dumps???? i mean could you ever looks at something and seriously say, man that is one mean pile of spider crap.. hmmm ( Read more... )

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so my thighs kill because me and kenton were doing the 'thin thighs' workout dvd when he came to visit.. and now he's gone and i miss him like whoa lol.. man i don't even think i want a wedding i just want to get married and then i'll be good to go.. i had such a great time when kenton came over it was awesome i didn't want him to go :(.. oh and i ( Read more... )

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