he's gone. I love you Daddy.

so much for months.
Leo's kidneys are feeling. They are cancelling all treatments and have set him up at home with hospice care. Its down to a matter of days.
As great as my pain is, it is nothing compared to what my mom is going through. My heart aches for her. And it breaks for Meadow, who is missing out on years of memories that she won't get

For starters, I'm writing this here because I have lots of family and mutual friends on facebook so please don't mention anything on facebook if we are friends there, but I need to vent/explode ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in a while. I've mostly done that on facebook or in person so most of this will be old news ( Read more... )

Went to my first open in five years (or more I'm not really sure). It was great. I saw people I hadn't seen in forever but it felt like just yesterday. And that wonderful feeling you can only get with raising energy with a good group of people. Solitary is wonderful and great but not the same. Feel like I am getting back a little piece of the me ( Read more... )

"I know that 2009 was pretty horrid for a lot of people. One way we might make 2010 a bit better is to spread some love around. So if you care to reply to this post I will give you a response of something I like about you.

If you like participating in these sorts of things and want to repost this in your LJ that'd be fun, too."

Sometimes I stop and look around the apartment and ask myself if I am a bad mom because my house is always in some stage of messy. Now I'm not griping about oops there is a dish in the sink. My home is pretty much always in some stage of trashed. The laundry ratio of clean to dirty is generally on the side of dirty. But Meadow is always in clean ( Read more... )

Bleh ( Read more... )

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Pics!!
http://pics.livejournal.com/ladybranwyn/gallery/0000477d