Nostalgia is such a muthafuckin bitch.

I'm tired. I'm sad. I keep thinking if I cry I'll feel better.
But instead of crying I just want to run.

If I run fast enough the world can't catch.
At least they haven't yet.

I make my own future.
Fuck fate.

Is the idea of leaving life up to chance less terrifying?
No.
But I'll do it anyway.  Because I will not be ( Read more... )

If inside my head was an open cavern, there would be a bottomless pit in the middle.  On either side of this hole exist two teams.  In their hands they hold a thick rope.

And they pull.  Endlessly.

How will I feel tomorrow--today--this very fucking minute.

The battle is won. The battle is lost.
And begins again.

Seconds later, the moment they battled ( Read more... )

Everything is changing.
You're looking for the cure,
and you feel like you're the loneliest girl
in the world.
Trouble in your head now.
Don't know what to do.
Seems like up is down and red is blue.

Red is blue.
Red is blue.

Remember when we started?
Days when all was fun and
all that we could make when life was young?
Now you're getting older.
Nothing feels ( Read more... )

It's funny, I know.
But I'm disappointed in you.
I thought you could read my mind,
but I came home early
and saw that a drawer'd been opened.
Looks like you've been reading my diary instead.

How does it feel to realize
you're all alone behind your eyes?
It seems to me if you can't trust
you can't be trusted.

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Today I'm feeling really aloof.  I'm strangely frightenend--nervous.  High anxiety.  I've made lots of plans today.  I'll follow through with virtually none.  Maybe that's a psychological disorder in action.  Maybe that's just me.  Maybe both.

Today I'm shooting for the stars, knowing I might fail.  I'm fine with that.

-Smiles

You get smaller as the ( Read more... )

I'm not sure I can do this.
I'm not sure if crying is the answer.

I'm not sure if screaming is the answer.

I'm not sure I've ever experienced real love, suddenly.

I'm not sure the world will ever change.
I'm not sure I'm capable of changing it even if it could.

I'm not sure that this is real.
I'm not sure that it's not.

I wish I could feel someone's lips ( Read more... )

I'm happy today.
Really happy.

Are happy things happening?
No.
Are they about to happen?
Probably not.

I'm happy anyway.
I've got a good feeling about today.

And I think it might involve black eye shadow.

-Smiles

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We wait above a road.
We're turning to go home
and the silence from the side of the car
tells me everything and how we are.
'Cause there's no more trying to make this so right.
There's no more trying tonight.

And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone,
and I wonder if I'm alone in your head.