How long can I go on like this?
Wishing to kiss you
before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me.
In fact it makes me nervous.
If I get caught I could be risking it all.

Cause maybe there's a lot that I'd miss
in case I'm wrong.
 

There's only one me in the galaxy
I am an endangered species
This kind of flower don't grow on Earth
Just lettin' you know for what it's worth

This kind of mountain shouldn't cause a depression
So I bide my time with philosophical questions
Not for nothing but what came first
The chicken nugget or the egg mcmuffin

I got talent and I got tits
I know I'll ( Read more... )

Soo check this.

Went to meet my new friend downtown for a minute.  I only have about an hour between the time I get their and last call.  Anyway.  The time I had with my new friend totally rocked.

So she asks for a ride home.  Cool.  No big deal.

So she gives me the address, and I'm thinking...why does that sound so familiar?

She lives next door to the ( Read more... )

Yesterday Laura was at my place.  We were just sitting around talking.  I got out my signature shot glasses.  Since moving into this apartment, they've been converted into candle holders.

Laura made a comment about not really feeling like drinking.
Then I realized even if I wanted to drink there was no alcohol in the house.  We just don't keep it ( Read more... )

I love my job but I'm tired of my weekends being full before I can even plan them.  I've got to help Josh film, I've got to look for houses with mom, if I want to see my friends that comes after I get off work at 11p.m. which is doable, but I get so fucking tired.

Le sigh.

It's Friday and I already know how lonley the weekend will be.

-Smiles

(Can I  ( Read more... )

When people would ask that ridiculous question,

"if you had to lose your sight or your hearing--which would you give up?"

I always thought it was unaswerable.

Wrong.
I'd never give up music.  Even if it meant giving up color.  Sunrises.  My lovers eyes.  I'd keep music.  I'd keep the sound of piano and drums.  I'd keep my stereo and CDs and say goodbye ( Read more... )

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Just because I'm lonely doesn't mean I'm not getting better.  I'm moving on.  I'm moving away from you.  That doesn't mean that on some level I'm not struggling.  But I know myself well enough to know I'm a survivor.  And here I am.

Alone on this island, I'm making it.  I'll always make it.  If they want to get rid of me, someone better drop a ( Read more... )

So long ago I don't remember when,
that's when they say I lost my only friend.
Well, they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
as I listened through the cemetery trees.

I seen the sun coming up at the funeral at dawn.
The long broken arm of human law.
Now it always seemed such a waste.
She always had a pretty face
so I wondered why she hung around ( Read more... )

Sometimes a thousand small particles that are floating throughout the universe abruptly swirl into a seemingly solid object and lodge somewhere in my throat or in my brain.  I feel as if every inconsistancy and every emotion suddenly exists as a single creature that is looking to kill me dead.  Ideas about life and death, the future and the past, ( Read more... )