It is always a little strange to be back at my parents house. They added on to the house since I moved away and I don't even know what lights specific switches work. It always feels like I am a visitor.. at least for a couple of weeks.. but then next time I come back it starts all over again. I love my family. I am happy to be here. It is just so ( Read more... )

I need to find something to do at night. Sitting in my room for 3+ hours chatting to random strangers who message me and writing is just not cutting it. Suggestions??

I have been sad today. I keep feeling like I am going to start crying at just about any moment. Collide by Howie Day just came on my pandora station. That really does not help when being tangled up in the morning was one of my favourite times and that song always reminded me of Seth to begin with; there is a line in there about being quiet. I'm ( Read more... )

I actually see the light now, but I do not know if I will ever reach it.. so that really only makes me more confused in the long run. I think I have figured things out after a couple of long conversations with my sister and loads of in my head time. Sometimes my sister can be pretty self-absorbed, but she always comes through for me in a pinch.. ( Read more... )

I opened up my bible last night to try to get some sort of answer from God. I did it exactly how I was taught by Sr. Frances. It was the one thing I really took from the 12 odd years of catechism classes that I was enrolled in as a youth. I needed something. I put myself in the sort of prayer trance and what page did I turn to? "with God all things ( Read more... )

It really scares me that there seems to be less and less tolerance in this world. Maybe not even less tolerance but our communications systems and travel are so much more efficient now that we can hate more people at once. We need some more tolerance in the world and more love. I used to think that love was all you really needed but I no longer ( Read more... )

I am exhausted. Beyond exhausted. Our ceiling in the bathroom caved in from a leaky pipe in the apartment above us while we were out at the GSA banquet. Our bathroom looked like a war zone. It took about 4.5 hours to clean. Our neighbors upstairs came down and fixed the pipe in our ceiling [their floor] via a ladder in our bathroom and Maria helped ( Read more... )

I am a worrier. My car got towed yesterday and I felt awful about it. At least for a while until I tapped on my drum and got a good hug. And then I felt only slightly troubled. I needed to tap and I needed that hug. I need to keep people around me that don't worry so much. Not much is really that big of a deal when you intellectualize it. I am for ( Read more... )

I've been getting lots of requests for birthday present lists recently [due to the upcoming anniversary of my birth]. I have a hard time fulfilling these requests. I don't really feel like there is much that I need right now. Anything that I don't need I feel greedy asking for. Also, many things that I really want are not things you can really ask ( Read more... )

My mom called today and we talked for almost 40 minutes about everything that has been bothering her (including, but not limited to various family members doing silly things, including my little brother who has been particularly irresponsible lately.) It is sort of a strange development between my mom and I. She was mildly upset with me for not ( Read more... )