I used to believe in magic, love, fairytales, happily ever after, and everything that I thought to be powerful. Now I don't even know what to believe in anymore. Love has broken me down so many times and just ripped what little pieces I had up into so much more. I understand you only get so many chances to find love, but is there really such a ( Read more... )

No one is seeming to understand how it feels. My family is walking out on me again....but this time it's not my fault. No one is just letting me be sad and hurt. I decided to draw again and ya know what....this time when I woke up from it...I only felt a sting when I took off the bandage. It doesn't work anymore. Bleeding....trying to drain the ( Read more... )

I don't fucking get it. It's almost like I'm not supposed to understand it. I stopped dreaming again, or so I thought. I finally figured how to control it. I don't dream ALL night long and then during my morning wake...where I get up with my alarm goes off and then hit the snooze alarm for an extra 15 minutes and sleep some more. TECHINCALLY you ( Read more... )

What the hell is the damned point? That is my big question. Why can't I find happiness? It's just starting to really grate my mind about everything. Who I am? Who I want to be? Why I'm with certain guys? Why I won't really let myself fight? How I've changed ( Read more... )

I like that no one reads my LJ or responds to my dramatic posts. It's nice knowing that I can vent and let everything out and not have to worry that someone is going to read it and get all bend out of shape and be retarded to me. I understand that sometimes I make comments/statements in my posts about it, but that's merely because I have some " ( Read more... )

So I'm not trying to complain on this one or really anything of that nature. All I am trying to do is just say what I want to say without dealing with stupid people reading it, misunderstanding what I say, and just taking it out of context way too far ( Read more... )

So I don't really care who you are reading this or what you might think of me after reading it, cause well most likely it will be misread and yeah....I'm only writing here so other friends won't read and start lecturing me. So nah!

So I'm not the MOST reliable of girlfriends and the most considerate in ways. I'm kind of the type that gets bored ( Read more... )

So I love my friend'd I really do, but it's one of those things that they suck at just being supportive. I know I fall fast and I fall hard. It's one of my biggest imperfections in my mind. It takes a lot tho for me to fall. I'm not so blinded by falling. Granted I have/do make that statement quite often, but it usually is something that once I've ( Read more... )

I want to say it every night ( Read more... )

I always dreamed of a fairy tale ending for my life, but it seems that I'm just not lucky enough to be given that while I can enjoy it. That or I'm a joke and what feels like it's just way too good to be true get's taken away when I really start truely enjoying it. I understand anything and everything worth having should be worth fighting for as ( Read more... )