Describing our current situation although i can't help but be thankful that I am poor and have such an amazing husband and family-besides we'll get by. lately I have been interested in where meat is coming from-watching some pretty distressing videos. I have definately had enough. I may have been inspired to even quit the last animal products I ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I am just floundering in all my roles these days. Perhaps I am a bad mother-perhaps I misread this whole having kids thing as my calling and I might suck at it? Or does everyone feel like they're incompetent. Violet seems to have an inner alarm that signals when I have just fallen asleep to start to fuss-I can't help but get ( Read more... )

cold day of sailing yesterday-my toes were blue. We watched a coast guard hellicopter drop a rescue diver and bring someone up-it was intense. I am looking forward to getting back to Alaska and regular life-this trip was definately too long-Violet is ready for her own bed, she hasn't let me sleep for 3 days so I am feeling awsome. At least eamon ( Read more... )

Lots of driving-red rock country is amazing though-It looks like Australian outback-I brought back some red rock, desert sage and the crazy red earth for a luck few-Im am quite sick and feeling pretty crappy-The weather here in salt lake has improved-nice and sunny and not too too warm yet-we got rained out in moab-we were supposed to leave there ( Read more... )

So it seems we are thwarted again in attempts to celibrate spring-3 inches more expected? Christ. I think it was the threat of running-everytime I go running it snows all night and the next day-grrr. It is pretty though and hey this is denial weather-its gonna loose its grip at some point-Leaving for green lush sea side washington in two weeks-and ( Read more... )

I remember the night well- the energy seemed to be buzzing in my ears and a felt near a melt down. I slipped into my boots and ran all the way to your house in the dark, feeling my way at break neck speed to your door-you were dressed like a goth and listening to Nine Inch Nails-trying to stretch your ears-I had arrived at the right time I thought ( Read more... )

Some times people crack me up-what is it like to live in your own universe? Is it tiring to have everything revolve around you-is it tiring that everybody is always watching you-learning how to be better, grounded individuals? I wonder what its like to wake up every morning finding a new sence of direction. large cup of sarcasm anyone...anyone??

God I am actually posting an entry-so much has/is happening-wonderful labor and delivery aided by two beautiful women-Heather and Christine-funny that my little girl will be told she was born on the kitchen floor while we were waiting for the midwives to show up. Great adventure, also pretty impressive what the human body can do. On another I can't ( Read more... )

Everything is illuminated was a rad movie. The abstract imagery reminded me of how I visualize my paintings. I thoroughly enjoyed it. I have been pretty relaxed lately for the first time in months, since sheena's death I have been feeling off-obviously- but my ability to trust and have faith in the natural order of how life happens has been ( Read more... )

Oh how I wish to just be solitary these days-enough of school and all the people- enough of the endless, pointless chatter and horridly imposed social situations-I want to be a hermit for the next four months-Sometimes its wierd looking around and realizing everyone is so FULL of shit. Does anyone ever stick to thier story? Does anyone ever say ( Read more... )